Blog's first birthday!

Hey everyone! I am posting this from my phone as I fall asleep cause I nearly forgot what today is. For those of you who don't know, which I guess is everyone, I have had this blog for one year today! So much has happened in the past year and have most of the eventful times recorded on here. I am thrilled that I can say I managed to stick to blogging for a year. Though there were times I was a little neglectful. I just want to say thank you for everyone who has been reading my blog. 

Here's to another year of blogging!

-Random Girl xxxx

P.S this was accidentally posted on the wrong blog. So it was actually a few days ago. 

The Kingdom of Boredom

You know that saying, "time flies when you are having fun"? Well, time has been going dead slow the last few days. It's funny because since September, life was flying by very quickly and before I knew it, a term had gone. And now each minute ticks by painfully slow. What feels like fifteen minutes is usually about two. I have been back at school for two days but I don't think thats the reason. It seems like I am always counting down the time lately. I'm either waiting for a TV show to start, a lesson to end, that one person to reply to my message. So I try to keep busy so time will move faster but that seems to be failing. I feel like I am stuck in some never ending slow motion life, when all I want to do is fast forward time a little bit. I guess being alone hasn't helped my boredom. My friends all went back to uni this week, and I have distanced myself from the ones I made at school. Why I did that? I don't really know but I don't really regret it. But that is a story for another time.

So I am pathetic and alone on a Friday night with nothing to do. And I am annoyed at myself for not planning something. I have work in the morning so I wouldn't have been able to go out anyway, but it still sucks. Even my family are busy. My parents are out and my brother is chatting to his friends on his playstation. Wow, life really is pathetic when your brother has a more active social life than you do.

Anyway, there you have it. My boring, sucky thoughts. Anyone else feeling like this right now?

- A very bored Random Girl xxx

P.S if you are a regular reader, please comment every so often. Would be great to get some feedback! :)

1000 Views!

Reached 1000 views today! May not be a huge amount but it is amazing for me! Thanks for reading and sorry I am so pathetic at updating.

-Random Girl xxx

6 Months, 2 Weeks and 3 Days

So I have done a pretty poor job of blogging. I have had this blog for almost a year and you would think that by now I would know what I was going and what to write about. Well I don't. But that pretty much explains my life. I just pretend I know what I am doing until I hopefully figure it out. I just go along with everyones plans and tweak it here and there but I don't really make any of my own decisions. Like some sort of puppet. I have different people pulling my stings and telling me what to do, what to say, what to think. The only thing they don't control is what I say on here. By not allowing anyone to know I blog, it gives me the power and freedom to say how I feel without the strings tugging at my mind. I am free.

But shouldn't life always be like that? Why do I have to keep secrets and lie in order to be who I am without judgement? Well, I guess you guys are probably judging me but I don't know who you are and you don't know who I am so that doesn't bug me much. It is when the people I care about that judge me, and those people who hurt me.

My teachers see me as a girl who will probably fail. Again. And that I am just being over hopeful about the possibility of going to University. They just go along with this act because they are paid to. Not because they care about my accomplishments. They all have very low expectations of me which in turn gives me low expectations of myself. They don't believe that I will pass and I will do my best to prove them wrong. And myself. Just like I always try to do. And sometimes I do prove them wrong. But when I do I don't get the reaction I want. Even though they are surprised they just want me to do better. Because what I achieve will never be good enough.

Then there is my friends. I can easily split all my friends into two categories. The ones from school who I see all the time, talk to all the time, and think they know me when they don't. And the ones who are now gone. At a stage of their lives which I have not got to yet. The people I thought I didn't fit in with but strangely enough the longer we are apart the closer I feel to them. Like family. When they were here I never felt that way. I thought they were just my friends from school for the time being. But now they mean a lot more to me than that. I love them. They are family to me. And I don't tell many people I love them. In fact I never used the word until about a year ago. Sometimes I feel like they are the only people who accept me for who I am and let me be who I want to be. At school, my friends are always deciding things for me. And they have an image of what they think I am like and I end up becoming that. They think they know who I am and I just let them. What is the point in arguing with them if they won't ever believe me. They say I do things I haven't and feel things I don't.  And that is the truth. Their truth. Not mine. But what is the difference really?

And of course there is the main two puppeteers of my life. My parents. And just like every teenager, I am going to whine about them to. They have expectations of me which I have not ever wanted to achieve. They have this perfect little image of me getting good grades, being talented, going to university, getting a good job and having a stable life and family. I don't want that. Not for a while at least. I want to see the world, discover new things, discover who I am. I don't mind if I don't exactly have a stable lifestyle and a lot of money. As long as I am happy. Because that is all I want. My parents order me around and guilt me into things which is how they control my actions and emotions.

I want to be myself. I want to be honest. I want to stand up for what I believe in. I want to have fun. I want to be proud of what I have accomplished without being put down for it. I want to see and discover everything. I want to know who I am. I want to live. Live a life that is my own. And I guess I will eventually. It will just take 6 months, 2 weeks and 3 days. And then I will be free.

New Blog!

Hey guys! So big news! I have made another blog just for my fiction stories for those of you without Wattpad! Hopefully it will be updated more often than this one because instead of waiting around for interesting things to happen in my life to write about, I can make it up whenever I want. So please check it out by clicking on the link.

Love you all!

-Random Girl xx

Six Month Blog Anniversary (Or Half Birthday?)

Hey Everyone! Today is the six month anniversary of my blog! Yes that's right. I have had a blog for half a freaking year! In the past six months a lot has happened. Here is a list recapping everything.

1. I got a blog

2. I went from crutches to walking

3. I went to Disneyland

4. Got involved in tons of untrue rumors

5. Legally became an adult

6. Passed my mock exams

7. Got a car

8, Learnt how to drive

9. Hooked up with a guy which came with some drama

10. Finished my exams

So there it is. My top ten moments over the last six months. Hope you have enjoyed it!

- Random Girl xx

500

Hey everyone! As of right now I have 500 views! It may not be much compared to a lot of other blogs but it is a lot more than I ever expected.

Thank You For Reading!

-Random Girl xx

Blog Makeover!

Hey guys! So I decided it was time to change my blog image for my Birthday which is in 4 hours and 20 minutes! In case you didn't notice I am very excited!!! :) Anyway I must leave now to continue revising. Okay well that was a lie. To START revising. Did't realise that it was almost 8pm. Whoops! Will have my new post about mocks, rumours and my birthday soon! Bye!

-Random Girl xx

Random Girl Blog Update

Hey Everyone! Just wanted to let you guys know that I am only posting about once a week (or more if my life gets more interesting and I am too impatient to wait and tell you). Otherwise you guys will probably get bored when I run out of things to talk about. Unfortunately it is also because I have my daunting mock exams coming up (yes i'm blaming school!) which some would describe as crushing darkness. I have been watching to many horror films instead of revising. Okay now I am rambling so this is probably a sign that I should stop typing now. Talk to you guys next week!

- Random Girl xxx