Ready for some random rambling? Cause that is about all I have for you guys right now. So this year was meant to be the year where everything got better but that hasn't really worked out great. I started the year completely broke. Then I failed my driving test. And an hour after that my grandma died. Sucks right?
Death is a weird thing to process and understand. Other than my kitten Pepi dying when I was 12 I haven't really experienced what it is like for someone I love to die. My grandma and I weren't very close though. Which makes it even harder for me to understand how to feel.
Why weren't we close? Well it all has to do with the bad luck of being born 5 days after my cousin Francis. She is the daughter my grandma's only daughter. And my dad was the middle child to make things even worse. So there was always some sort of favouritism towards her. I actually think I wrote a post about it around last easter or the easter before that. So in the end its not really that we didn't love each other. She just loved my cousin more.
And now she is gone. No more conversations about what I am doing with my life. No more losing at scrabble against her. No more her. It is strange to think someone you have known your whole life is just gone. Forever. And as horrible as it was sometimes I will miss her. Next week I am going to her house for the funeral and I am pretty sure it will hit me much harder that she is not alive anymore. The only good thing really is that she is hopefully more at peace than she was at 97 years old. She lived her life and now it is time for her to move on.
So what else? Well I go back to uni now. Like literally now I am writing this as I travel 6 hours up country on the train. The first 40 minutes of the train was awful. My boyfriend once again dropped me off at the station to say goodbye. Again. I am so fed up of goodbyes. But hopefully he will be in Oxford next year. And he is coming up for my birthday soon.
Speaking of my birthday. On February 25th 2017 I am no longer a teenager as I turn 20. So what does that mean for this blog? I have no idea. I never thought I would be writing on here for this long. So what does Random Girl do when her blog is about being a teenager? Maybe I should start a new one. No idea what to call it though. And then I would have to start all over again. Or I could change the title? If anyone has any suggestions that would be great.
Maybe this year I will actually keep my promise to myself about writing more. So the countdown to the end of my teenage years in on. Let me know what you think.
- Random Girl x
Friday 27 January 2017
Tuesday 3 January 2017
New Year- 2016 Review
So unless you have been living under a rock, you must have realised that for the world in general, 2016 was one of the worst years ever in many people's opinion. Though I agree it sucked I still think the years where we had wars or even the plague could be considered worse. But for many young people who live in what people used to call first world countries (though thats now considered outdated according to my A-level Geography essay from two years ago) it has been somewhat of a tragedy. Of course the terrorist attacks where awful and the deaths of well known people aka celebrities was upsetting, but otherwise I think I had a pretty decent year.
Anyway, a year ago I made predictions of how my year would go. I should have probably kept note of my predictions every month but being the lazy girl I am, I decided to try and remember when I write this. So may not be majorly accurate but the important things should be correct.
Original Prediction- January- Boy Drama. Not sure of what kind. Friendship or other, but I reckon boys are gonna be stressing me out a lot this month.
What really happened?- This was very accurate. But to be fair this was the same month I wrote this. There was a guy at school who was basically a huge dick to me because I rejected him. He told the whole school I was a cheating bitch or something so literally everyone except like three people hated me in all of sixth form. So out of like 250 people. But not everything was bad. I started going out with a guy who I'm still completely in love with and we will be celebrating out one year anniversary on the 15th of January. A year today he got into a car accident which led to us talking and even though it was a horrible thing to happen to him, it led to something amazing.
Original Prediction- February- Of course there is my 19th Birthday. But that isn't a prediction of course. And there is mock exams. Again, I already know that. Hopefully, I will have passed my driving test by then? Maybe. And hopefully pass my exams.
What really happened?- Well I still haven't passed my driving test. So obviously that didn't happen. I did however pass my mocks. Barely but enough to get the grades I would need to get into uni. Also on my birthday my mum wasn't there because she had to fly to Colombia for a family emergency and my dad forgot to pick me and my brother up from school so I missed half of my birthday party. Luckily my boyfriend rescued us from a restaurant where I got myself drunk on cocktails as I waited to get picked up.
Original Prediction- March- Something new will happen. A new hobby, a new friend, maybe even a relationship (though I doubt it.) Something will change, even if only temporarily.
What really happened?- Uh, honestly don't think much happened this month. I can't remember anything memorable at least. Was probably just stressing about exams. There was this one girl I made friends with who happened to start going out with that guy who was a dick to me in January. Which obviously made him hate me more even though I genuinely liked her and we never talked about him.
Original Prediction- April- Hopefully by then it will be sunny. Maybe I will start running? Haha. Yeah, right. I can always dream though. Right?
What really happened?- I did start running but I think that was like two months later and honestly just a handful of times. I think I just spend all of my time working at my local pub or revising. Was just very busy with the easter holidays.
Original Prediction- May- Exam time! One of two things will happen. I will either be way to stressed or way to calm. I am going to go with calm as my prediction. Stress will probably come in later.
What really happened?- Well can't remember how stressed I was but I think I was calm. Revised a lot for once and took all my AS exams. Even managed to fit in a three day holiday with my boyfriend to Thorpe Park which was honestly some of the best days of my life. We stayed at the park so we were there before the guests arrived every morning and got a fast track past for two hours for both mornings. So we managed to go on literally every ride in the park.
Original Prediction- June- Finishing off exams. Will be bittersweet. I will be excited to be done with school, but I know I will feel sad about leaving. I am quite a sentimental person. So a lot of goodbyes.
What really happened?- So I did my A2 exams which were scary. Was relieved that I finally finished economics after three years instead of two. Was actually pretty happy to leave the school at this point because I was fed up of being there an extra year and just wanted to get away to uni.
Original Prediction- July- If I do manage to raise the money I need then I should be somewhere in the U.S by then. Yes, American readers, I am invading your country. You have been warned! And Canada too! Let's not forget about you guys. (If I have any Canadian readers, of course).
What really happened?- I did end up going to the US and Canada. Was joined by my cousin and had an amazing time in the US visiting theme parks. However, Canada sucked. Please don't be offended Canadians. Your country was pretty cool but I had some issues with the cousins I was staying with. Just felt awkward the whole time and ended up leaving a week early.
Original Prediction- August- This will be the end of my travelling. I will probably be very stressed about exam results and getting into University. Then I will be busy preparing to leave and sad about leaving my parents. Probably involves a whole lot of crying.
Anyway, a year ago I made predictions of how my year would go. I should have probably kept note of my predictions every month but being the lazy girl I am, I decided to try and remember when I write this. So may not be majorly accurate but the important things should be correct.
Original Prediction- January- Boy Drama. Not sure of what kind. Friendship or other, but I reckon boys are gonna be stressing me out a lot this month.
What really happened?- This was very accurate. But to be fair this was the same month I wrote this. There was a guy at school who was basically a huge dick to me because I rejected him. He told the whole school I was a cheating bitch or something so literally everyone except like three people hated me in all of sixth form. So out of like 250 people. But not everything was bad. I started going out with a guy who I'm still completely in love with and we will be celebrating out one year anniversary on the 15th of January. A year today he got into a car accident which led to us talking and even though it was a horrible thing to happen to him, it led to something amazing.
Original Prediction- February- Of course there is my 19th Birthday. But that isn't a prediction of course. And there is mock exams. Again, I already know that. Hopefully, I will have passed my driving test by then? Maybe. And hopefully pass my exams.
What really happened?- Well I still haven't passed my driving test. So obviously that didn't happen. I did however pass my mocks. Barely but enough to get the grades I would need to get into uni. Also on my birthday my mum wasn't there because she had to fly to Colombia for a family emergency and my dad forgot to pick me and my brother up from school so I missed half of my birthday party. Luckily my boyfriend rescued us from a restaurant where I got myself drunk on cocktails as I waited to get picked up.
Original Prediction- March- Something new will happen. A new hobby, a new friend, maybe even a relationship (though I doubt it.) Something will change, even if only temporarily.
What really happened?- Uh, honestly don't think much happened this month. I can't remember anything memorable at least. Was probably just stressing about exams. There was this one girl I made friends with who happened to start going out with that guy who was a dick to me in January. Which obviously made him hate me more even though I genuinely liked her and we never talked about him.
Original Prediction- April- Hopefully by then it will be sunny. Maybe I will start running? Haha. Yeah, right. I can always dream though. Right?
What really happened?- I did start running but I think that was like two months later and honestly just a handful of times. I think I just spend all of my time working at my local pub or revising. Was just very busy with the easter holidays.
Original Prediction- May- Exam time! One of two things will happen. I will either be way to stressed or way to calm. I am going to go with calm as my prediction. Stress will probably come in later.
What really happened?- Well can't remember how stressed I was but I think I was calm. Revised a lot for once and took all my AS exams. Even managed to fit in a three day holiday with my boyfriend to Thorpe Park which was honestly some of the best days of my life. We stayed at the park so we were there before the guests arrived every morning and got a fast track past for two hours for both mornings. So we managed to go on literally every ride in the park.
Original Prediction- June- Finishing off exams. Will be bittersweet. I will be excited to be done with school, but I know I will feel sad about leaving. I am quite a sentimental person. So a lot of goodbyes.
What really happened?- So I did my A2 exams which were scary. Was relieved that I finally finished economics after three years instead of two. Was actually pretty happy to leave the school at this point because I was fed up of being there an extra year and just wanted to get away to uni.
Original Prediction- July- If I do manage to raise the money I need then I should be somewhere in the U.S by then. Yes, American readers, I am invading your country. You have been warned! And Canada too! Let's not forget about you guys. (If I have any Canadian readers, of course).
What really happened?- I did end up going to the US and Canada. Was joined by my cousin and had an amazing time in the US visiting theme parks. However, Canada sucked. Please don't be offended Canadians. Your country was pretty cool but I had some issues with the cousins I was staying with. Just felt awkward the whole time and ended up leaving a week early.
Original Prediction- August- This will be the end of my travelling. I will probably be very stressed about exam results and getting into University. Then I will be busy preparing to leave and sad about leaving my parents. Probably involves a whole lot of crying.
What really happened?- So got home at the end of July because of previous said problems. Was more impatient than stressed about results. And more screaming than crying because I ended up with higher grades than expected and got into my first choice. Thats right, I finally passed economics. Not just passed but got a B which was a grade higher than what I needed. I am still thrilled when I think about it. Recently found out I was the only person in the year who was allowed to apply for adjustment which basically means I was the only one who got higher than predicted grades in the year. Which is awesome. Got very excited about shopping for uni stuff and planning my accommodation where I found out my friend ended up in the same flat as me.
Original Prediction- September- University! And what comes with starting uni? FRESHERS WEEK! So basically I will be drunk most the time. Making friends and maybe a few who are more than that. You get me?
What really happened?- Well, this was an eventful month. I packed for uni, said goodbye to my friends, and got stung in the eye by a wasp which caused it to swell up and for me to end up in minor injuries two days before I left for Oxford. This leads to me meeting everyone at freshers week with a swollen eye. I met my flatmates and made some friends in my accommodation. Went out a couple of times during freshers week but not every night because I'm human. And lazy. Definitely didn't meet anyone who was more than a friend for the obvious reason of being in a relationship.
Original Prediction- October- Homesickness. Maybe some sort of other drama in the mix. Boy drama. Friend drama. Family drama. Something along those lines.
What really happened?- I didn't end up getting that homesick because I went home twice. Once because I sort of had a week off and then a second time to get a tattoo! Yes an actual permanent tattoo. Mum only found out this month and not sure if my dad knows or not. Not really any drama from what I remember.
Original Prediction- November- Christmas is approaching! Lots of lights, got chocolates. Maybe someone, to cuddle up with to keep warm. Then again, probably not. That doesn't sound like me. But I could be a whole different person by then.
What really happened?- Was pretty homesick this month even though I got stuck in Cornwall for two weeks due to trains being cancelled from bad weather. Went home for my brothers birthday where his party of twenty soon turned into a raging drug fuelled party of 50 where people got kicked out and furniture was destroyed. There are still bloodstains on my stairs. Then didn't really socialise because I was really busy with assignments.
Original Prediction- December- The end of the year. Of course there is the holidays. Will probably be working at the local pub. Just happy to see my old friends. So basically, happy. And who doesn't love the extra Christmas and New Years parties?
What really happened?- Well I finished my assignments. Came home early due to having no exams (go coursework!) and started working at the local pub. However, I ended up being sick the day before I left Oxford which was the beginning of December and I am still sick now at the beginning of January. Been to hospital twice so far and had to stop working. Will be okay I think but is taking forever to get better. Haven't had a chance to see my friends but have spent a lot of time with my family and my boyfriend :) Spent Christmas with my best friend's family, my family and my boyfriend who joined later in the evening. Then spent New Years with his family.
So that is about it really. My whole year summed up. May make predictions about this year but won't make them yet. There is currently too many what ifs. Like where will I live next year and will me and my boyfriend still be together. Too scary to think about right now.
Hope everyone has a better year than 2016. Let's see what 2017 brings us!
-Random Girl xx
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