21st Birthday and Life in General

So another year goes by and I'm just a little but older. A few weeks ago I had my birthday, yes I usually post on my birthday but I was very busy. I went to see Imagine Dragons in Birmingham and I swear to god was one of the best things I have ever witnessed. If your a fan, PLEASE go and see them. I would love to see them again if anyone wants to buy me tickets ;)

Anyway I turned 21 in the car on the way back to my flat singing songs with friends and family. Then had my birthday morning with my parents, brother and my boyfriend which ended up being about my parents telling me to hurry up and me bossing them around telling them I will take as long as I want opening my presents. Then we went to the pub where we met with cousins and family friends for a crazy lunch full of little kids. Okay three but they seemed to outnumber us despite there being like 12 adults. After that by family left and had a lovely lazy evening with my boyfriend watching movies.

So you would think that was it for the celebrations right? haha no. So on the following Thursday, I went out with my boyfriend and work friends. I was excited to introduce my boyfriend to my friends and they were hitting it off until my stupid boyfriend got drunk and threw up in the middle of the club and got kicked out. So not only did we have to leave just after some of my friends arrived but then he threw up all over the side of the taxi and I got charged extra for it. AND he threw up in our bed so I spent the night on the sofa and looking after him. You would think I would be furious for ruining my night but he was so pathetic and apologetic the next day I couldn't be mad at him.

Continuing this, we had a huge snow storm so my friends who were meant to be visiting the next weekend couldn't make it. But we went to this mini golf bar place and then out clubbing where I worked with my other friends and it was great.

And that was where my week long celebrations ended. So what else? Life in general in very unexciting. I go to uni and sit alone at home whilst my boyfriend works all day. Sometimes go out with friends. Sometimes my boss guilts me into actually working.

I feel like my friends are all in a very different stage in life compared to me. I have friends finishing up uni and trying to decide what to do with their lives, friends who are completely unsure uni was the right decision and are looking into something new. But they are all back home and I am the only one who is out at uni full time. I love my life here but I have been a little home sick lately. They are all busy working full time and I am just sat here watching Netflix yet again thinking to myself that I really need a hobby. Does shopping count? Or sleeping?

I feel kind of stuck in my life and even though I have everything I could possibly want, a great flat, an amazing boyfriend who lives with me, going out with friends, a funnish job, a uni course I am interested in... I am still bored. I guess my teenage years were so dramatic that my great life is just kind of dull. I need excitement in my life. The need to do something new or different always crosses my mind. I just wish I knew what was missing...

Sorry if I sound like such a whiner when people have major problems with their lives. I hope you don't hate me. I have genuinely had proper issues that I haven't spoken about on here so I am not oblivious. I just happen to be in a good stage of my life.

-Anyways there you go, just another random post from a random girl x

Emotional Support

So if you are reading this and have read some of my other posts you might know that I recently got into a relationship for the first time in my life. Not a petty little year 9 relationship but a serious one. Sure 18 (now 19) was a bit late but oh well. Anyway back to the point. So I'm still new to a lot of things when it comes to being part of a couple and having a boyfriend. And in the last 24 hours I learnt a few new things that I thought I would share with you.

Last night I was just chilling at home with my boyfriend when mum comes home, ordering me around. I was already annoyed at her for being very controlling about my life so I stood up to her (for once). This led to a long argument that you don't really need to know the details (for now). So whilst I was arguing in the kitchen with mum I left my boyfriend in the sitting room. After arguing I basically broke down in front of him which was very embarrassing for me because he has never seen me cry. Not many people have. I was worried about what he would think of me. That I was pathetic. But instead he just spent the whole time holding me and comforting me. Just trying to make jokes to make me laugh. We had recently been saying "I love you" but it was the first time I actually knew for sure that I loved him. Hear I am a crying mess with a lot of family problems and he just tells me that he is annoyed because I still look cute when I'm crying and that he loves me. It was just such a strange concept for me to have that kind of level of support from someone when I was arguing with someone I was so close to. I said I was sorry he had to be there to witness my drama and he said he was glad that he was there so he could hold me and cheer me up.

Anyway, today he was working (at the same pub I do) and came back to mine briefly as it is practically next door to work. He was very mad because he has an awful day where the customers were rude and our boss was being a dick. And I just didn't know what to do other than listen to him rant about his day. And it sucked. I wanted to do more. To cheer him up. Make him feel happy. It was so strange to feel bad because he felt bad.  I felt awful that he had to go home (because it was late and he needed food and sleep) before I could do anything to make him feel better. I wanted to be there for him and didn't know how. It's not just a bad day at work. It has been a recurring thing and he isn't really sure what he is doing job wise right now.

I guess what I'm trying to say is emotionally supporting someone is one of the most amazing parts of being in a relationship. As cheesy as it sounds, being there for the bad parts is what matters. But it also sucks when you need to be there for someone and don't know how. 

-Random Girl xxx

Learning about Relationships

Hey everyone. So here is a little update on my life. Well I guess the main thing going on right now is being in a relationship for the first time in my life. Yeah, nearly 19 is a bit late but oh well. So my boyfriend asked me this week why I haven't been in a relationship before. And I guess it comes down to a lot of reasons. I was always a bit of a commitment phobe. I didn't like the idea of being attached to one person. And no its not so I can get with whoever I want whenever I want. It's the other stuff. In my mind relationships equal effort. Effort that I either couldn't be bothered with or didn't have time for. Yeah that makes me pretty lazy but thats just me. My life has always had a lot going on. I have moved, I have had lots of family drama, friend drama, boy drama, school drama, health drama and well... life drama I guess. I never had time to focus on a relationship when I have so much always going on. I thought it would always be too difficult to concentrate on being with someone.

What I didn't expect was for it to be as easy as it is. I thought I wouldn't want to constantly text, call and meet up. But that is just what happens naturally. It is easy to be with him, because he is easy to talk to. He makes me comfortable. Happy. It feels very normal. The timing probably couldn't be worse but despite all that it works. I am busy but I make time for him when I can. And we both know that we have some sort of deadline when I leave in a few months which sucks. We are aware of it but tend to joke it off. Not really talking about it. But to be fair we have only been together for just over a week. It's months away so it isn't something to worry about too much yet. We might even break up before then.

So here are some things I have had to get used to in the last week.

1. I am not allowed to flirt with other people. For a natural flirt it is kind of hard. Not that I want to or anything. It kind of just happens so I need to stop.

2. I actually have a social life now. We regularly meet up, get food. Hang out. So I am no longer spending all my time in my room on my computer.

3. I don't have to feel guilty every time I get with him. I may have not been in a relationship before but I'm not a nun. I have kissed people. But Im pretty much always drunk, and it's always a one night thing, making me feel guilty. But now I just feel happy. Happy that I have no reason to feel guilty.

4. I always have someone to talk to. About basically anything. Someone who actually cares. Sure I have friends but this is nicer somehow. More meaningful.

5. Relationships change over time. There are stages. The was the jokey flirty stage. The not knowing where it was going stage. The just getting together and telling everyone stage. And I guess now it feels more real. The actually being together, knowing each other a lot better. Just being able to talk and laugh about anything together. And I can already tell that each day gets a little more serious and feelings develop a little more each day.

So there you go. A little bit of an update.

-Random Girl xxx

A Random Work Day

Hey, so I have decided to tell you how my shift at work usually goes. I work at the local pub as a waitress and it can sometimes be a little... strange. I will basically describe how my shift at work today went. Well, first I went in at about 11:30 am which I hate, because I am completely and utterly useless in the morning. I am pretty sure I spent the first two hours walking around and drinking water. Plus pretending to clean stuff. I then found a poster full of kiddie animal stickers which were named after some of the staff members. Then we spent the rest of the morning trying to stop the ceiling from leaking, and put a bunch of containers all over the floor because it was practically raining inside.

Then a lot of the shift was spent talking about this guy from work who idiotically crashed his car, But what they don't know is that I have spoken to him non-stop since. Even skyped a few times. Before the crash we flirted a bit but we weren't really that close. So when they talked about him I didn't really know what to say cause they don't know that I talk to him. So I just chose not to comment, whilst sneakily texting him throughout the shift about what people have said about him. Even fitted in a short Skype call during my break ;) At least until we got caught by one of the chefs who looked at us really weirdly.

It was a little slow, so nothing very dramatic. The boys made weird bird noises and asked all the girls if they will have their babies. We met a local celebrity who is meant to be very famous but I didn't have a clue who he was when I served him.

So that was pretty much it for today. It rained indoors, met a celebrity and avoided the boys craziness.

Wish me luck for tomorrow!

- Random Girl xxx

Arrow Review Season 1-3

*Warning: Contains Spoilers

So I started watching this over the Christmas holidays because my brother kept going on about it for years, telling me to watch it. Honestly, I thought it would be some sort of normal boy action tv series that I wouldn't be interested in seeing. Of course I am a girl, so I am more interested in drama with a bit of sideline romance. But I was pleasantly surprised when I started watching it. Actually thats an understatement. I have binge watched the first three seasons within two weeks, and that was with my busy work schedule and holiday events. 

For those of you who haven't heard of Arrow, here is a description I found on IMDB.

Spoiled billionaire playboy Oliver Queen is missing and presumed dead when his yacht is lost at sea. He returns five years later a changed man, determined to clean up the city as a hooded vigilante armed with a bow.

There is a lot more depth to the story than your classic super hero which intrigued me. He had been tortured, learnt new skills he never thought he would need, and escaped death numerous of times over the five years. All things that changed who is was as a person. And bit my bit though flashbacks we uncover layers of him as they show his past. Of course, there is also a bit of defeating the bad guys in the present. But there was also not only Oliver adapting from "coming back from the dead", but his family and friends too. And they all had a past and change they went through in the past five years too. His mother got involved with the bad guys, his sister got caught up in drugs, his best friend fell in love with his ex-girlfriend and she herself had to deal with the death of her sister, the split of her parents and her dad's alcohol problem.

There was romance too. First Oliver had to accept his ex-girlfriend was in love with his best friend. Then he fell in love with a women who he accidentally turned into a bad guy, only after revenge for the death of her fiancé by killing her father. Then after the death of his best friend, he attempted to get back with his ex, Laurel, but they felt too guilty. Then there was a women who nearly died. So he wasn't very lucky in love. But then right in front of him all this time was his accomplice, IT Tech Geek, Felicity Smoak. Who he finally realised his love for, when it was almost too late. There was also a romance between Oliver's sister, Thea and this guy Roy, who the Arrow/Oliver saves. He then ends up helping Oliver defeat the bad guys and is in a relationship with Thea.

So basically even all the sideline characters have drama. And real problems, not something stupid like, "this boy doesn't like me back", or "oh,  I cheated on someone." They have deep emotional problems, dealing with loss of friends and family, substance abuse and lose of identity.

I think Arrow is almost more about the deep stuff than a guy dressed in a hood, running around, shooting bad guys with arrows. And for any girls who still aren't persuaded to watch, Oliver is freaking hot too. That is a good enough reason alone to watch. (Many shirtless scenes.)

So that is my rough review of Arrow. If you haven't already, please watch. You will get hooked.

- Random Girl xx

Welcome to 2016!

Oh look, I am back. Again, sorry for being life. But writing something eventually is what counts, right? As everyone knows, the new year has begun. And it is the best time to think about all the crappy and amazing things that happened in the past year and what is to come for the new year.

For my 2015, I started out depressed and bored. Fed up of being in pain from my surgery and not being able to go out anywhere, missing parties that all my friends were having. Instead I was stuck at home, basically begging anyone, to spend time with me. I was grumpy and whiny all the time so obviously my family had a good reason to keep away. And then of course, I started this blog by the end of January. Finally having someone to talk to, even if I didn't have someone talking to me, I could express my feelings to them. Then my year gradually improved, I had a great time with my friends, an awesome summer, passed all my exams, I could even walk, almost like a normal person. Then it kind of went down hill a little. My friends all left me behind to go to university, leaving me with the year below. A bunch of people I barely knew. And then it got better, I made some friends, went to parties, survived a car crash (don't know if that is considered good or bad) and so on. Life was pretty normal. Then the stupid drunken text incident happened. (Read about it in one of my posts if you want to know more.) We have all been there. Sending that one person a meaningless text that gets misread and then spread everywhere until before you know it everyone in the school hates you. Or at least that is what happened to me. And except for the occasional joke here and there, that has finally calmed down too. Then approaching the end of the year I begun to fight with my parents quite a bit. It is a long story that involves mum hating my best friends mum and not wanting me to hang out with my best friend anymore. Of course, I refused. But you don't need to know the whole story. (I mean if you want to I will tell you another time, just comment to let me know.)  But that is better now. I went back to work. Finally. Met some great people, I am actually starting to really like work now. But that is probably because of a particular person if you know what I mean. *Insert winky face here*. Then of course, who doesn't love christmas and then the big finale. New Years Eve! And I had an amazing start to the new year. *Insert wink face here. Again.* And even made some new friends.

So yes, a very rollercoastery year. At least my lateness in posting was consistent! So what happens next year for 2016? Let's make a prediction. I am gonna write one thing for each month of what I think will happen, and this time next year I will go over that list and see how accurate my prediction skills are.

January- Boy Drama. Not sure of what kind. Friendship or other, but I reckon boys are gonna be stressing me out a lot this month.

February- Of course there is my 19th Birthday. But that isn't a prediction of course. And there is mock exams. Again, I already know that. Hopefully, I will have passed my driving test by then? Maybe. And hopefully pass my exams.

March- Something new will happen. A new hobby, a new friend, maybe even a relationship (though I doubt it.) Something will change, even if only temporarily.

April- Hopefully by then it will be sunny. Maybe I will start running? Haha. Yeah, right. I can always dream though. Right?

May- Exam time! One of two things will happen. I will either be way to stressed or way to calm. I am going to go with calm as my prediction. Stress will probably come in later.

June- Finishing off exams. Will be bittersweet. I will be excited to be done with school, but I know I will feel sad about leaving. I am quite a sentimental person. So a lot of goodbyes.

July- If I do manage to raise the money I need then I should be somewhere in the U.S by then. Yes, American readers, I am invading your country. You have been warned! And Canada too! Let's not forget about you guys. (If I have any Canadian readers, of course).

August- This will be the end of my travelling. I will probably be very stressed about exam results and getting into University. Then I will be busy preparing to leave and sad about leaving my parents. Probably involves a whole lot of crying.

September- University! And what comes with starting uni? FRESHERS WEEK! So basically I will be drunk most the time. Making friends and maybe a few who are more than that. You get me?

October- Homesickness. Maybe some sort of other drama in the mix. Boy drama. Friend drama. Family drama. Something along those lines.

November- Christmas is approaching! Lots of lights, got chocolates. Maybe someone, to cuddle up with to keep warm. Then again, probably not. That doesn't sound like me. But I could be a whole different person by then.

December- The end of the year. Of course there is the holidays. Will probably be working at the local pub. Just happy to see my old friends. So basically, happy. And who doesn't love the extra Christmas and New Years parties?

And there you have it. Last year and this one rolled into one. Hopefully, I will be a better blogger, but that probably isn't realistic. I hope you all have an amazing year. Also, making this list was quite funny for me, so maybe you should try it. Write it down somewhere and look at it next year and see how close you were.

- Random Girl xxxx

My New Best Friend Drama

Hello peeps! I dunno why I said that. That sounded weird. Anyway, today I am going to tell you all about the person who has caused the biggest amount of drama in my life. My best friend. Or at least very good friend. Due to me wanting to be all mysterious and basically refuse to give you too much info on who I am and where I live, I am going to give him a fake name. So let's call him Dave. And let's call our other friend Matt. This way it sounds more like a made up story instead of the truth. So no, these are not there real names.

So if you are a regular reader then you would know that I am repeating the year so I had to make new friends. I quickly became friends with Dave and Matt. The three of us were in almost every class together so naturally we talked a lot. I especially became good friends with Dave and we were in every class together. So it didn't take long for rumours to form about us being a couple. Rumours didn't affect me much as I was used to them in the past. It did affect him more than me. I guess it just didn't bug me cause I knew the truth. I had no feelings for him beyond friendship. And I was perfectly fine with that.

Then Matt had a party. Where everyone got a little drunk and yes, me and Dave got a bit cuddly but nothing happened beyond that. I was just a natural flirt when I drink. Okay, that is a lie. I am a flirt when I am sober too. But that isn't the point. So that was in half term. About a month ago. And straight after that I went to Israel. At the airport I get a message from a mutual friend asking me what happened at the party which confused me. Apparently in my two day absence more rumours had spread saying that I had slept with Dave. Which didn't happen. We didn't even kiss. Nothing. Of course no one believed me except for my really good friends.

But Dave didn't do anything to help the situation. He didn't deny anything and make jokes that to most people who didn't realise thought it was the truth. I also admitted to Matt that I nearly got with someone at a wedding in Israel and he told Dave who told me not to tell anyone. Which is weird I know.

Life continues as normal until Saturday night when me and my friend go out with some other friends. Long story short, I get super drunk and send a stupid message to Dave about sort of cheating on him or something. This was reference to an inside joke that he made when we talk to other people we are cheating even though we are not together. I don't remember the exact message. In fact I don't remember sending anything at all. And it was on Snapchat so I can't read back. He ignored me for three days. Longest we have ever gone without talking. I didn't understand why he was mad until my friend told me today. She told me what I had said to him (according to him), and realised that I had jokingly said I cheated on him or something. Anyway he reacted badly and now he hates my guts. In fact he is completely livid.

I still don't fully understand why though. I mean, I know it was a pretty shitty thing to say but I was incredibly drunk. I don't even remember saying it. I am surprised that I even managed to form proper sentences.And even if I had got with someone else, its not like I am actually cheating. I am single and allowed to hook up with whoever I want. He doesn't have the right to be mad.

Then Matt tells me that Dave told him everything including that I got with Dave at the party. To which I respond by saying that he was lying. Why would he tell him that when nothing happened? so yeah, I am a little mad at him for that as well as for overreacting to this whole stupid drunken message.

Right now he is still ignoring me and it looks like he will refuse to talk to me for a while.

So what should I do?

-Random Girl xx

Adapting

So here is a little update on my life lately. So I went to my first university open day the other day which was great. I really liked it there. I mean it was a bit stressful to walk around and have your parents hounding you to ask questions and so on but it was still good. Other than that, not much has been going on except trying to adapt to being in the year below, all my friends and classmates gone to move on with their lives whilst I spend time with people I had never spoken to until a year ago. Also trying to adapt to the fact that I have gone to hanging out with mostly girls to mostly boys which is different. And surprisingly comes with more drama than I was expecting. 

For example, my friend and I are retaking last years economic exams and we are sitting in on a class in the year below to revise. So there is this girl called Sasha who is a year younger than my friend and two years younger than me. A new girl who is in our class and I thought she was nice but didn't really know her or anything. And then I end up leaving this class temporarily because they were studying a part that I found easy. But apparently in my absence this girl steals my seat next to my friend and basically becomes obsessed with him. Constantly talking about him with her friends and has now even moved to sit next to him when he goes to breakfast in the morning. 

But now she gives me evil glares all the time. What the heck did I do? Seriously, if anyone has any suggestions then that would be great because I am clueless. This girl hates me now and I have only ever spoken to her once. So what if I am friends with the boy she likes? I was friends with him longer than she has even been to the school and I am not going to stop hanging out with one of the few good friends I have at this school just to please a stalker. 

Then today, I have to go back to this class just for today to take a test. And I get there before her and take back my old seat  (where I sit for my A2 Economics and sometimes my business studies class too, by the way) and am already laughing and chatting with my friend when she walks in. She is halfway to my seat when she realises I am sat in my old spot and she goes from smiling to glaring at me pretty quickly. So she turns around and goes back to her old seat and sends me evil looks throughout the lesson as I ignore her and take my test. Then me and my friend both finish very early and have to sit around for half an hour and end up secretly talking and making words on the calculator, causing her to glare at me even more. So by the time we were allowed to leave I was kind of relieved. I have to go back to that class regularly soon which is going to suck.

Other than that not much is going on. I have been writing a bit lately so feel free to check out my other blog or my Wattpad books.

So anyone else ever have this problem? 

-Random Girl x

Exams vs Writing

Hey guys! Oh my god it has been so long since I have posted anything. I missed my blog. For those of you who have still been reading thanks. I promised myself that I wouldn't post again until after exams are over. Unfortunately my last exam is one of the last in the country and I don't finish until the 19th June. But it was too long to be away and I was getting withdrawal symptoms. So here is a short post for now. I will make it up to you with more frequent posts than my weekly posts when exams are over.

Here is a little bit about what has been going on. Okay, I can't remember what I last told you but I think my last post was after Easter so I probably mentioned briefly my friends party and how I had boy drama. That is pretty much over. I will tell you the whole story soon. Other than that I have unfortunately spent most of my time revising. Exams Suck. I hate them and I hate revision. I am so bad at both. If I fail again I don't know what I am going to do. I can't wait until they are over. But once they are I will be saying goodbye to my friends who are leaving for uni and travelling. I don't know where I will be yet. I will let you guys know when I know.

The last thing I should probably mention is that I have been writing a teen fiction series and I am now on Wattpad. I know, I know. Bad timing with exams and all. I was going to wait but I was to impatient and you could probably tell. So I am @RandomGirl1302 on Wattpad so please check it out! I will put a link below with my first book. I have just finished the second one a few minutes ago and I will get to the last book in the Trilogy after exams. If I am patient enough to wait that is. Which I am probably not. Not going to lie.

Here is a description on what the first book is about,

Hope (The Gracewood Series) Book 1-

Amelia Hope James (or just Hope which she prefers) has always been in the limelight thanks to her movie star mother and her father the famous director, much to her dismay. Hope has lived her whole life under the shadow of her parents fame and knows just how fake the life of a celebrity can be. So when Hope gets sent to Gracewood Academy, one of the top boarding schools in the country, she finally has the chance to make a name for her self and see what life is like without having to deal the pressures of fame. 

However boarding school isn't exactly a walk in the park with the endless boy drama, a bitchy roommate, detentions, parties, a secret blogger who some how knows everything that goes on in Gracewood, and having to deal with the biggest issue of all. Keeping her identity a secret.

Here is the link-

http://www.wattpad.com/story/40077615-hope-the-gracewood-series

Please Check it out and give me some feedback.

Anyway that's from me for now. I have to go and revise business studies :( exam is on Thursday. I will post to you guys about actual stories on what has been going on like boy drama, friend drama school drama and god knows what else soon, Not just these crappy updates I have been giving you guys lately. And remember summer is soon. And that means a lot more free time and interesting things to write about! Good luck for those of you who have exams!

- Lots of Love, Random Girl xx

Exam time

Hey guys. So i haven't been on here in a while and i am sorry. A lot has been going on in life lately. So here is some of what has been going on. Towards the end of the Easter holidays I went to a friend's party. I wont tell you right now what happened but let's just say it was very eventful ;) and then I had to deal with the aftermath drama which is now finally over! Yay! Since then I also decided to write a book. We will see how that goes. My first exams start in a few weeks so I will be kind of busy for awhile :( so there won't be any posts for another couple of weeks.

 Wish me Luck! I am gonna need it. Good luck to everyone else who has exams!

- Random Girl xx

My First Post! :)

Hey! So this is my first post ever and I don't think I will get many (or any) followers but I thought it would be fun. So I will tell you a little bit about me. My mum is Colombian and and my dad is British. I have traveled the world from a young age. I lived on a boat and crossed the Atlantic, sailing around the Caribbean. I have also had many health issues from the age of 5 but I am finally getting better a bit over 10 years later. I failed the year last year so I am repeating (which sucks!). I also have very complicated friendships and way less boy drama than last year (which I will got to another time). I have no idea how this year is going to turn out. Will I make any friends in a year who seems to hate me? Will I meet a guy? Will I finially pass my exams? Will keep you posted! ;)