End of 1st Year

Sorry it has been so long. In my defence I was very busy with final assignments, exams, moving and work. On the bright side I got a 2:1 this year and an A in my accounting and finance exam :) 

So what is happening? Honestly not a lot. I'm trying to work hard and save money for next year but this week my shifts keep getting cancelled so I'm not earning any money. Which is really annoying me. You would think I would be happy with the free time but I'm just so bored. And I want money :p at least I have a second job soon but it's only 10 hours a week. At this rate I'm gonna need a third job that isn't affected so much by the weather. 

I'm still happy in a relationship. There was a rocky three days but things are improving and have been making up a lot ;) 

So I think what I need is a hobby. I used to love writing but I now struggle to come up with anything. Which is annoying because it would be the perfect thing to do with my alone time and I found out about a publishing company but would either need to "spice up" my old stuff or write something you. But can't think of anything to write. 

What else... My grandma and aunt are visiting. I love them but they are driving me a little crazy. They just don't leave you alone. And they took my newly finished room so I'm stuck in the spare room on a rock hard bed so I haven't slept in 4 days. 

I also visited my old school with my best friend because we got invited to talk to my brothers year about university. Which led to her and all my old teachers deciding that I should be a teacher. Which I am actually considering. But I would probably do it like 5-10 years after I graduate. 

So now I'm just chilling in bed yet again trying to work out how I am going to spend my day instead of working. 

Any suggestions?

-Random Girl xx

New Year- 2016 Review

So unless you have been living under a rock, you must have realised that for the world in general, 2016 was one of the worst years ever in many people's opinion. Though I agree it sucked I still think the years where we had wars or even the plague could be considered worse. But for many young people who live in what people used to call first world countries (though thats now considered outdated according to my A-level Geography essay from two years ago) it has been somewhat of a tragedy. Of course the terrorist attacks where awful and the deaths of well known people aka celebrities was upsetting, but otherwise I think I had a pretty decent year.

Anyway, a year ago I made predictions of how my year would go. I should have probably kept note of my predictions every month but being the lazy girl I am, I decided to try and remember when I write this. So may not be majorly accurate but the important things should be correct.

Original Prediction- January- Boy Drama. Not sure of what kind. Friendship or other, but I reckon boys are gonna be stressing me out a lot this month.

What really happened?- This was very accurate. But to be fair this was the same month I wrote this. There was a guy at school who was basically a huge dick to me because I rejected him. He told the whole school I was a cheating bitch or something so literally everyone except like three people hated me in all of sixth form. So out of like 250 people. But not everything was bad. I started going out with a guy who I'm still completely in love with and we will be celebrating out one year anniversary on the 15th of January. A year today he got into a car accident which led to us talking and even though it was a horrible thing to happen to him, it led to something amazing.

Original Prediction- February- Of course there is my 19th Birthday. But that isn't a prediction of course. And there is mock exams. Again, I already know that. Hopefully, I will have passed my driving test by then? Maybe. And hopefully pass my exams.

What really happened?- Well I still haven't passed my driving test. So obviously that didn't happen. I did however pass my mocks. Barely but enough to get the grades I would need to get into uni. Also on my birthday my mum wasn't there because she had to fly to Colombia for a family emergency and my dad forgot to pick me and my brother up from school so I missed half of my birthday party. Luckily my boyfriend rescued us from a restaurant where I got myself drunk on cocktails as I waited to get picked up.

Original Prediction- March- Something new will happen. A new hobby, a new friend, maybe even a relationship (though I doubt it.) Something will change, even if only temporarily.

What really happened?- Uh, honestly don't think much happened this month. I can't remember anything memorable at least. Was probably just stressing about exams. There was this one girl I made friends with who happened to start going out with that guy who was a dick to me in January. Which obviously made him hate me more even though I genuinely liked her and we never talked about him.

Original Prediction- April- Hopefully by then it will be sunny. Maybe I will start running? Haha. Yeah, right. I can always dream though. Right?

What really happened?- I did start running but I think that was like two months later and honestly just a handful of times. I think I just spend all of my time working at my local pub or revising. Was just very busy with the easter holidays.

Original Prediction- May- Exam time! One of two things will happen. I will either be way to stressed or way to calm. I am going to go with calm as my prediction. Stress will probably come in later.

What really happened?- Well can't remember how stressed I was but I think I was calm. Revised a lot for once and took all my AS exams. Even managed to fit in a three day holiday with my boyfriend to Thorpe Park which was honestly some of the best days of my life. We stayed at the park so we were there before the guests arrived every morning and got a fast track past for two hours for both mornings. So we managed to go on literally every ride in the park.

Original Prediction- June- Finishing off exams. Will be bittersweet. I will be excited to be done with school, but I know I will feel sad about leaving. I am quite a sentimental person. So a lot of goodbyes.

What really happened?- So I did my A2 exams which were scary. Was relieved that I finally finished economics after three years instead of two. Was actually pretty happy to leave the school at this point because I was fed up of being there an extra year and just wanted to get away to uni.

Original Prediction- July- If I do manage to raise the money I need then I should be somewhere in the U.S by then. Yes, American readers, I am invading your country. You have been warned! And Canada too! Let's not forget about you guys. (If I have any Canadian readers, of course).

What really happened?- I did end up going to the US and Canada. Was joined by my cousin and had an amazing time in the US visiting theme parks. However, Canada sucked. Please don't be offended Canadians. Your country was pretty cool but I had some issues with the cousins I was staying with. Just felt awkward the whole time and ended up leaving a week early.

Original Prediction- August- This will be the end of my travelling. I will probably be very stressed about exam results and getting into University. Then I will be busy preparing to leave and sad about leaving my parents. Probably involves a whole lot of crying.

What really happened?- So got home at the end of July because of previous said problems. Was more impatient than stressed about results. And more screaming than crying because I ended up with higher grades than expected and got into my first choice. Thats right, I finally passed economics. Not just passed but got a B which was a grade higher than what I needed. I am still thrilled when I think about it. Recently found out I was the only person in the year who was allowed to apply for adjustment which basically means I was the only one who got higher than predicted grades in the year. Which is awesome. Got very excited about shopping for uni stuff and planning my accommodation where I found out my friend ended up in the same flat as me.

Original Prediction- September- University! And what comes with starting uni? FRESHERS WEEK! So basically I will be drunk most the time. Making friends and maybe a few who are more than that. You get me?

What really happened?- Well, this was an eventful month. I packed for uni, said goodbye to my friends, and got stung in the eye by a wasp which caused it to swell up and for me to end up in minor injuries two days before I left for Oxford. This leads to me meeting everyone at freshers week with a swollen eye. I met my flatmates and made some friends in my accommodation. Went out a couple of times during freshers week but not every night because I'm human. And lazy. Definitely didn't meet anyone who was more than a friend for the obvious reason of being in a relationship.

Original Prediction- October- Homesickness. Maybe some sort of other drama in the mix. Boy drama. Friend drama. Family drama. Something along those lines.

What really happened?- I didn't end up getting that homesick because I went home twice. Once because I sort of had a week off and then a second time to get a tattoo! Yes an actual permanent tattoo. Mum only found out this month and not sure if my dad knows or not. Not really any drama from what I remember.

Original Prediction- November- Christmas is approaching! Lots of lights, got chocolates. Maybe someone, to cuddle up with to keep warm. Then again, probably not. That doesn't sound like me. But I could be a whole different person by then.

What really happened?- Was pretty homesick this month even though I got stuck in Cornwall for two weeks due to trains being cancelled from bad weather. Went home for my brothers birthday where his party of twenty soon turned into a raging drug fuelled party of 50 where people got kicked out and furniture was destroyed. There are still bloodstains on my stairs. Then didn't really socialise because I was really busy with assignments.

Original Prediction- December- The end of the year. Of course there is the holidays. Will probably be working at the local pub. Just happy to see my old friends. So basically, happy. And who doesn't love the extra Christmas and New Years parties?

What really happened?- Well I finished my assignments. Came home early due to having no exams (go coursework!) and started working at the local pub. However, I ended up being sick the day before I left Oxford which was the beginning of December and I am still sick now at the beginning of January. Been to hospital twice so far and had to stop working. Will be okay I think but is taking forever to get better. Haven't had a chance to see my friends but have spent a lot of time with my family and my boyfriend :) Spent Christmas with my best friend's family, my family and my boyfriend who joined later in the evening. Then spent New Years with his family. 

So that is about it really. My whole year summed up. May make predictions about this year but won't make them yet. There is currently too many what ifs. Like where will I live next year and will me and my boyfriend still be together. Too scary to think about right now. 

Hope everyone has a better year than 2016. Let's see what 2017 brings us!

-Random Girl xx

Finished School

Hey everyone!!! Guess what!?! Exams are finally freaking over! I am freeeeeeeeee. Okay sorry a bit over excited. It hasnt really hit me yet that school is officially over. I had all the special ceremonies, presentations, end of year pranks etc. Today I handed in all the textbooks that have been piling up in my bedroom for the past three years. I gave my teachers cards and presents and said goodbye to a few. And then I took my last (and toughest) exam. I kind of feel like I was missing something. Because all that happened is that I walked out, went into my mums car and went home. That's it. I have spent pretty much all my free time revising so now that I have free time and nothing to revise? Well I am bored. It has only been a few hours and I have been bored constantly. Luckily my best friend is saving me because we are going out tonight. But she is taking forever to get here for pre drinks so I am blogging and pre drinking on my own. A bit sad, I know but I can't really afford many drinks whilst out so I need to drink more now so I can buy less drinks whilst out. Good thing my brothers prom was yesterday because there is a lot of free leftover alcohol for me to drink :)

-Random Girl xx

Not Enough Time..

Hello internet people! So work has taken over my life!!! I hate it. It is all I do, all I think about, all I talk about, even all I dream about. I don't know how people do this full time. I mean I get doing a job you love or is part of your career, but full time waitressing sucks. (At least for me. Please don't be offended if you do this full time, it is just my opinion.) My bosses suck. I have barely seen my boyfriend these past few days. Yesterday I finished at five and he started at six. And then today I am working from 2 until close (around 11) and he was meant to come in at five to join me. You know what my bosses did? Changed his shift so he was sent to another pub to fill in for someone for the day. And then tomorrow he is working and I'm free and then Sunday I am working and he is free. Life sucks. It's not just about not spending enough time with him though. One of the assistant managers is really getting on my nerves. And I live in a touristy area which is full of snobbish rich tourists during the holidays who come to the pub I work at and make my life a living hell. They are so specific about everything they want and complain if they are not the top priority. They think we are all beneath them and look down at us as if we were their slaves. I just want them to go back to their mansions and boss around their own slaves instead of substituting them for us. 

The other bane in my life is school. Exams are coming and that means revision. What an evil word. So when I'm not running around like a lost sheep, slaving away at snobbish tourists, I have my head stuck in a text book. And then my family complain I don't spend enough time with them and I complain I don't spend enough time with my boyfriend. Basically I don't have enough time to work, revise, spend time with family or my boyfriend. There just isn't time. And I can feel myself getting exhausted juggling it all. 

Life sucks.

-Random Girl xx

A Busy Random Girl

Hey everyone! Sorry its been a little while. But really, did anyone actually believe my good streak was going to last that long? To be fair, life has never been more busy. I have had university applications to deal with, my parents have been harassing me a lot, I had a whole lot of mock exams, went out with my friends a few times and obviously spent time with the boyfriend. So yeah, extremely busy. Mocks are over and Easter is quickly approaching. It is going to suck cause I am busy with work and revision for my actual exams, but I am also very excited to have all my uni friends come home! Yay.

Life has been really depressing and boring other than my love life. School is hard, my bosses are being dickheads and most my friends are either hours away or out of the country. But at least I have someone to cheer me up when I get stressed out. The next three months are going to be tough. And the worst part is that I want to cherish the last few months I have at home before I leave for university but i'm too busy to notice.

So there is a little update on how my life is a little overloaded. Will try and write a proper post soon, but no promises!

-Random Girl xx

5 OUT OF 5 UNIVERSITY OFFERS!

Oh my god, I am way to excited. Just found out I got offered a place at every university I applied to! I mean sure some of them aren't exactly hard to get into but for me this is huge! It is slowly starting to get more real that I am actually going somewhere in 8 months. It will be a whole new life. And now I have five options as to where I want to go. Now I am at the stage where I am going to have to worry about student loans, and accommodation. And reply to all of them. It is getting scarier and scarier as I go through each step but also just as exciting too. But sometimes I worry about how I am going to cope away from home, when there will be people I am leaving behind. My family. We have always been extremely close, and I almost think it will be harder for my mum than for me to see me go. Yet I can't wait. Well I say that, and part of it is true. But another thing that is changing is that the closer I get to my future, the more attached I am becoming to things at home. The people, my job, even the school. (It's a miracle, I know). It just makes it that much harder for me when I have to leave. But at least it will always be here for me to come back to.

- Random Girl xxx

6 Months, 2 Weeks and 3 Days

So I have done a pretty poor job of blogging. I have had this blog for almost a year and you would think that by now I would know what I was going and what to write about. Well I don't. But that pretty much explains my life. I just pretend I know what I am doing until I hopefully figure it out. I just go along with everyones plans and tweak it here and there but I don't really make any of my own decisions. Like some sort of puppet. I have different people pulling my stings and telling me what to do, what to say, what to think. The only thing they don't control is what I say on here. By not allowing anyone to know I blog, it gives me the power and freedom to say how I feel without the strings tugging at my mind. I am free.

But shouldn't life always be like that? Why do I have to keep secrets and lie in order to be who I am without judgement? Well, I guess you guys are probably judging me but I don't know who you are and you don't know who I am so that doesn't bug me much. It is when the people I care about that judge me, and those people who hurt me.

My teachers see me as a girl who will probably fail. Again. And that I am just being over hopeful about the possibility of going to University. They just go along with this act because they are paid to. Not because they care about my accomplishments. They all have very low expectations of me which in turn gives me low expectations of myself. They don't believe that I will pass and I will do my best to prove them wrong. And myself. Just like I always try to do. And sometimes I do prove them wrong. But when I do I don't get the reaction I want. Even though they are surprised they just want me to do better. Because what I achieve will never be good enough.

Then there is my friends. I can easily split all my friends into two categories. The ones from school who I see all the time, talk to all the time, and think they know me when they don't. And the ones who are now gone. At a stage of their lives which I have not got to yet. The people I thought I didn't fit in with but strangely enough the longer we are apart the closer I feel to them. Like family. When they were here I never felt that way. I thought they were just my friends from school for the time being. But now they mean a lot more to me than that. I love them. They are family to me. And I don't tell many people I love them. In fact I never used the word until about a year ago. Sometimes I feel like they are the only people who accept me for who I am and let me be who I want to be. At school, my friends are always deciding things for me. And they have an image of what they think I am like and I end up becoming that. They think they know who I am and I just let them. What is the point in arguing with them if they won't ever believe me. They say I do things I haven't and feel things I don't.  And that is the truth. Their truth. Not mine. But what is the difference really?

And of course there is the main two puppeteers of my life. My parents. And just like every teenager, I am going to whine about them to. They have expectations of me which I have not ever wanted to achieve. They have this perfect little image of me getting good grades, being talented, going to university, getting a good job and having a stable life and family. I don't want that. Not for a while at least. I want to see the world, discover new things, discover who I am. I don't mind if I don't exactly have a stable lifestyle and a lot of money. As long as I am happy. Because that is all I want. My parents order me around and guilt me into things which is how they control my actions and emotions.

I want to be myself. I want to be honest. I want to stand up for what I believe in. I want to have fun. I want to be proud of what I have accomplished without being put down for it. I want to see and discover everything. I want to know who I am. I want to live. Live a life that is my own. And I guess I will eventually. It will just take 6 months, 2 weeks and 3 days. And then I will be free.

My New Best Friend Drama

Hello peeps! I dunno why I said that. That sounded weird. Anyway, today I am going to tell you all about the person who has caused the biggest amount of drama in my life. My best friend. Or at least very good friend. Due to me wanting to be all mysterious and basically refuse to give you too much info on who I am and where I live, I am going to give him a fake name. So let's call him Dave. And let's call our other friend Matt. This way it sounds more like a made up story instead of the truth. So no, these are not there real names.

So if you are a regular reader then you would know that I am repeating the year so I had to make new friends. I quickly became friends with Dave and Matt. The three of us were in almost every class together so naturally we talked a lot. I especially became good friends with Dave and we were in every class together. So it didn't take long for rumours to form about us being a couple. Rumours didn't affect me much as I was used to them in the past. It did affect him more than me. I guess it just didn't bug me cause I knew the truth. I had no feelings for him beyond friendship. And I was perfectly fine with that.

Then Matt had a party. Where everyone got a little drunk and yes, me and Dave got a bit cuddly but nothing happened beyond that. I was just a natural flirt when I drink. Okay, that is a lie. I am a flirt when I am sober too. But that isn't the point. So that was in half term. About a month ago. And straight after that I went to Israel. At the airport I get a message from a mutual friend asking me what happened at the party which confused me. Apparently in my two day absence more rumours had spread saying that I had slept with Dave. Which didn't happen. We didn't even kiss. Nothing. Of course no one believed me except for my really good friends.

But Dave didn't do anything to help the situation. He didn't deny anything and make jokes that to most people who didn't realise thought it was the truth. I also admitted to Matt that I nearly got with someone at a wedding in Israel and he told Dave who told me not to tell anyone. Which is weird I know.

Life continues as normal until Saturday night when me and my friend go out with some other friends. Long story short, I get super drunk and send a stupid message to Dave about sort of cheating on him or something. This was reference to an inside joke that he made when we talk to other people we are cheating even though we are not together. I don't remember the exact message. In fact I don't remember sending anything at all. And it was on Snapchat so I can't read back. He ignored me for three days. Longest we have ever gone without talking. I didn't understand why he was mad until my friend told me today. She told me what I had said to him (according to him), and realised that I had jokingly said I cheated on him or something. Anyway he reacted badly and now he hates my guts. In fact he is completely livid.

I still don't fully understand why though. I mean, I know it was a pretty shitty thing to say but I was incredibly drunk. I don't even remember saying it. I am surprised that I even managed to form proper sentences.And even if I had got with someone else, its not like I am actually cheating. I am single and allowed to hook up with whoever I want. He doesn't have the right to be mad.

Then Matt tells me that Dave told him everything including that I got with Dave at the party. To which I respond by saying that he was lying. Why would he tell him that when nothing happened? so yeah, I am a little mad at him for that as well as for overreacting to this whole stupid drunken message.

Right now he is still ignoring me and it looks like he will refuse to talk to me for a while.

So what should I do?

-Random Girl xx

Adapting

So here is a little update on my life lately. So I went to my first university open day the other day which was great. I really liked it there. I mean it was a bit stressful to walk around and have your parents hounding you to ask questions and so on but it was still good. Other than that, not much has been going on except trying to adapt to being in the year below, all my friends and classmates gone to move on with their lives whilst I spend time with people I had never spoken to until a year ago. Also trying to adapt to the fact that I have gone to hanging out with mostly girls to mostly boys which is different. And surprisingly comes with more drama than I was expecting. 

For example, my friend and I are retaking last years economic exams and we are sitting in on a class in the year below to revise. So there is this girl called Sasha who is a year younger than my friend and two years younger than me. A new girl who is in our class and I thought she was nice but didn't really know her or anything. And then I end up leaving this class temporarily because they were studying a part that I found easy. But apparently in my absence this girl steals my seat next to my friend and basically becomes obsessed with him. Constantly talking about him with her friends and has now even moved to sit next to him when he goes to breakfast in the morning. 

But now she gives me evil glares all the time. What the heck did I do? Seriously, if anyone has any suggestions then that would be great because I am clueless. This girl hates me now and I have only ever spoken to her once. So what if I am friends with the boy she likes? I was friends with him longer than she has even been to the school and I am not going to stop hanging out with one of the few good friends I have at this school just to please a stalker. 

Then today, I have to go back to this class just for today to take a test. And I get there before her and take back my old seat  (where I sit for my A2 Economics and sometimes my business studies class too, by the way) and am already laughing and chatting with my friend when she walks in. She is halfway to my seat when she realises I am sat in my old spot and she goes from smiling to glaring at me pretty quickly. So she turns around and goes back to her old seat and sends me evil looks throughout the lesson as I ignore her and take my test. Then me and my friend both finish very early and have to sit around for half an hour and end up secretly talking and making words on the calculator, causing her to glare at me even more. So by the time we were allowed to leave I was kind of relieved. I have to go back to that class regularly soon which is going to suck.

Other than that not much is going on. I have been writing a bit lately so feel free to check out my other blog or my Wattpad books.

So anyone else ever have this problem? 

-Random Girl x

Starting School with a Bang!

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't posted in a little while but for once I have a pretty legit reason which is what the post is about.

So as most of you know, I just started my last ever year of school (for real this time) and going back was pretty much the same as every year except that I was hanging out with my friends in the year below me (now my year) and a lot of people that I went to school with in the past 5 years were no longer walking down the halls. It was fine though. Not as hard as I was expecting to go to school whilst a lot of my friends are off at uni. I mean, of course I am a little jealous that they get to go and start off their lives now but I know mine will start soon. Only a 8 months to go!

Anyway, as I was saying I have been hanging out with different people to usual but are fast becoming good friends of mine. Now don't be thinking that my excuse for not posting is cause I started school, cause it's not. That would be a pretty poor reason. No the reason I haven't posted is because I haven't really been able to write because I got injured in a car accident on Monday.

Now, before you freak out (if you care at all), no one was hurt. Well except for spraining my right wrist and possibly a broken finger or two. So what happened? It was a pretty usual day, and me and two of my newer guy friends were going out for lunch. Of course I would say yes because I didn't exactly have a huge supply of friends this year. So I get into my friend Ben's car and we are all leaving school. Now a thing you need to know about my school is that it is on top of a big hill, and the entrance is a very twisty road that otherwise resembles a snake. Which is also why we refer to it as "The Snake". So as usual in England, it had been raining all day and the roads were a little bit slippery. As we turn around the bend, the car skids and instead of going forward down the road after the turn, it slips sideways down a grassy hill. When I say hill, it is more like a 10ft vertical drop. Did I also mention that we flipped over and the car landed on it's side.

So yeah, not just a little bump against a wall. You probably thought we were screaming or thinking that we were going to die, but it wasn't anything like that for any of us. It was more like, oh god how much trouble are we in? Because the accident was still on school grounds so I was more worried about the aftermath than dying. Also, in case you were wondering, I didn't notice any pain in my hand at this point. Once it was established that the three of us were fine, we all burst out laughing, not really understanding how the hell the accident happened. And to make things worse, Ben was more worried about going through the process of when you normally turn off you car and putting on the hand break. Yeah Ben, it is a little late for that. Meanwhile, our other friend Richard who was sat on the front passenger seat, in front of me, was acting like this was completely normal and that we were meant to be randomly sitting in a car that was on it's side.

Apparently a teacher saw the whole thing and she went to get help, because our friend Tash who was driving behind us when it happened, didn't bother to get help for us and went straight home, only to text hours later asking if we were okay. We couldn't move for a while cause if we attempted to get out, the car would roll over again. So we waiting for the school maintenance guys to hold up the car as the boys climbed out of the driver's window whilst I waited for them to open the boot, so I could climb out of it from the back seat. Then some lady who none of us recognised who worked for the school made us go into her car and drive us up to the main office to wait. We didn't really understand why. As far as I knew we were all fine. I just figured that the maintenance guys could help flip the car back over and that Ben could drive home (as he had a free period that afternoon) as Richard and I go to our economics lesson. But instead we get told by some person that the police, the fire brigade and the ambulance were on its way. And then it kind of hit me again. Oh god what what have we done? I was now also worried because even though we were allowed to leave school for lunch. we have to get permission from parents to get in someones car and to sign out. And none of us had done any of those things. It kind of shows how stupid the school can be if I was more worried about me getting into trouble than I was about myself after being in a pretty serious accident.

The police and the fireman arrive to look at the car and talk to Ben (and breathalise him even though he had been at school all day.) and all that stuff, and an officer took me and Richard into a room to question us about what happened. It is really bad that I was more worried about trying not to laugh than anything he was saying? He asked us if we needed to get checkout out by the ambulance but we said we were all fine.

Not much happened after that. All our friends, and basically the whole school, found out about what had happened and Ben had become some sort of legend for falling off "The Snake". I called my mum before the school did so she wouldn't freak out and we basically spent the afternoon hungry for missing lunch and telling everyone what happened. It wasn't until class when my teacher made me write loads that I realised how much pain my hand was in. So I went to the school nurse who basically ordered me to go to the hospital after school. Mum took me and it was pretty uneventful. As I said earlier it was just a sprained wrist and a possibly broken finger which is taped up right now. So a broken pinky being the only injure between the three of us was pretty lucky. It could have been a whole lot worse.

But what really got to me was what has happened in the last three days. Two typed os emails were sent out. One to the parents of every student, explaining what had happened, and another to every staff member apparently saying the same thing except it had our names in it. And a lot of staff members were more concerned about telling us off for not signing out than for our wellbeing. Then yesterday I hear that the operations manager tells off Ben and saying that there is nothing dangerous about the road and it is just his inexperience as a driver. Can I please mention that the snake is almost only used by students making them all 'inexperienced' at driving? So if that was the reason of the accident then surely they need to improve the safety of the road to stop this from happening again. Yes Ben is a new driver but so is the other 40 or so who drive up and down it at least twice a day in all weather conditions.

So now I am pretty mad. I want to stop this from happening again, because yeah we are all fine but we could have been seriously injured or killed. And someone else could have too. The school managed to keep the whole thing from getting out to the public and basically pretend that nothing happened except for when they want to yell at us for breaking a stupid rule that wouldn't have prevented anything from happening. We would have just got permission and signed out and gone out anyway. And we still would have got in that car accident. I am not saying the school is entirely to blame. But neither is Ben. So they are putting all the blame on him and keeping their hands clean and not doing anything.

Is this just my school? Do all schools care only about their reputations and not care about things like this that could potentially be dangerous for someone else? Despite the fact that many people have said it almost happened to them a few times. they won't do anything. Or maybe they can't be bothered. And even if they don't change anything, that is okay. But stop blaming the students for everything when it isn't entirely their fault.

This post is kind of long but at least I am making it up to you for the lack of posts recently. Please let me know what you think.

-Random Girl xx

Back to School

Hey! Twice in one week, shocking I know. But I finally got my new laptop which makes it that more possible to post again. So as you can tell by the title the topic of today's post is the most popular of any teenager, school. Tomorrow school starts again. But this isn't any first day of school. No, it is my last ever first day of school! I hope. It was meant to be last year but I am determined to finish this year. Anyway, to mark the occasion I am making a list of my top five things I hate and love about school.

Things I love about school-

1) Everyone's favourite probably, is seeing your friends. Because when we are finished, when will we ever get the chance to see your friends five out of seven days a week ever again?

2) Getting out of the house. Because let's face it. If I didn't have school everyday I would probably spend my days glued to my laptop on my bed whilst watching TV. Oh wait I am doing that now! But not for long.

3) Learning. Sometimes learning can actually be fun and interesting. I mean sure there are things like maths which sucks (not that have maths lessons anymore) but there are interesting topics about history or geography. About things that are going on in the world. Or even finding out something basic that you never knew before.

4) The gym and pool. Our school has a new building which is actually pretty cool and the facilities are great. Plus you know, you get access for free!

5) Access to town. My school is like a three minute walk to the hughstreet which is highly convenient for well.. pretty much everything.


Things I hate about school-

1) Assembly and Chapel has to be the worst. Because why do I want to spend hours in my week sitting around listening (or pretending to) to teachers yapping on about a bunch of crap.

2) Homework. No need to explain that one.

3) Exams suck. I mean we spend about fourteen (well only eight for me) in school and it all comes down to a couple of exams which determines whether or not your life is going to rock or suck.

4) sitting in long classes when they are boring as hell.

5) One thing you can always count on is sucky food. I mean, really? Most the time I skip lunch anyway.


So there you have my lists of what we have to expect this school year. Good luck to all of you!

-Random Girl xx

I am still alive!

Hey there guys! I am really sorry for neglecting my blog. I have had a lot of family drama and I have been moving around a lot. Also my laptop died on me which made my life harder. Good news though is that I just ordered a new laptop to arrive on Wednesday! Yay! I am so excited because it has taken me months to convince my dad to pay for half of it. Yeah now I am broke which means I have to go back to work :( and I really don't want to because since my surgery loads if knew people started working there and a lot of my friends left so I will be the awkward new person who isn't actually knew. That is if they even let me go back seeing as I haven't worked in over a year. Stupid leg. So no interesting drama has happened since like April which I have promised to tell you about one day and I will get there. My only real drama is stuff with my family which is kind of boring and then school drama. 

Speaking of which that is my other news. For anyone reading this who also read my early posts, you would know that last year I failed my exams. Well this year I passed them all! Yay! I officially have an A level in Geography and all I need is to finish Business which will be easy and then Economics which may just take a miracle. So that means I have a very light load of work this year and lots of free periods where I will hopefully be able to do some writing and blogging with my new laptop :) 

For all you UK readers, I hope your results went well! If for some reason they sucked and you want someone who doesn't actually know you but has been through the experience then feel free to comment or email me. (I think my email is around here somewhere.) 

Now I am off to go and get drunk with my best friends because I have had stressful day and I need to relax.

- Random Girl xx

P.S here is my new profile pic thing :)

World Gone Mad

Hey guys! I am extremely bored lately. I have been hauled up in my room alone for weeks with no one to talk to. Even my own mother left me alone to go to Colombia to see her mum. Meanwhile everyone else has gone crazy. Exams can do that to a person. Everyone gets so wrapped up in them that then become needy, selfish and even mean. Everyone gets distracted by exams and forgets that you are going through the same thing to. Instead of working together and helping each other through it, they yell and complain about all their problems, not bothering to ask you about your problems. For example a lot of people keep telling me that they have a lot more going on than me and that their exams are more important than mine. That, I have to disagree with. Don't get me wrong, I don't think my problems are worse or more important than theirs. They are the same to me, as their problems are to them. At least they get to finish school after this. They get to leave which was something I have been trying to do since I got here. Something they like to remind me daily. Which just about kills me. I hate it so much that it has nearly caused me to cry a few times. Not that they noticed. I would go and ignore them for days, distracting myself and pretend that I am not miserable. They are probably relieved that I am not talking all the time and irritating them instead of wondering if something is wrong.

Everyone I know has a purpose. An aim, an objective or some sort of goal. I don't even know where I am going to be next year. I could still be at school, which is what most people expect. I could be doing some sort of course somewhere else. I could be backpacking across America for all I know. Not that I think mum would let me. The point is that I am not jealous over the fact that they are all leaving me behind and will probably forget about me, leaving me completely and utterly alone. It is that they get to start their lives. They get to move on and actually do something meaningful. They may not all know exactly what they want to do. But at least they know for the near future. More than than I have. I don't even know what I am doing tomorrow, let alone next year. And I would give anything to know. Because not knowing is killing me inside. To the point where I have cried myself to sleep at night. Not that anyone cares. I am not their problem because they get to leave. I am just that friend they hung out with at school.

So whilst the world may not be going mad, just moving on, I am stuck. Unable to move on. You may think I am being over dramatic. I mean it is only one year. But it's not. Because what I do next year could define my life. I could be a school drop out with barely any qualifications and never get a job and fail at life. I could continue school and have an amazing year, or a miserable year all alone. No one knows. But I sure wish I did. Or at least had someone to help me figure it out.

For any of you who are also stuck in life, unable to decide what to move on to next, I hope you figure it out. Good luck to you.

- Random Girl xxx

Are all Teachers Hypocrites?

Hey Guys! So I’m wondering. What it going on with teachers? When I was younger my teachers were okay. But now they are all just huge hypocrites or to be honest just a bully. Form teachers are the worst though. 

So my first one at this school was Mrs Lugg. I was about 13 which is an awkward stage for any girl especially when you have just moved across the country and are going to school with boys for the first time. So this teacher didn’t help as she spent the majority her time yelling at us in front of the boys about shorts skirts and wearing makeup. To be fair we were like the rebellious class so she had a lot to deal with, but still! We stressed her out so much that she ended up having a heart attack and got sent away in an ambulance. And she never had a form again.

Then there was Mrs Jupp. She was the biggest bitch of them all. She was also my Spanish teacher at the time, even though she is English. And her Spanish was crap.. I mean I would know, seeing as I am half Colombian and all.. I would have got 100% I’m my Spanish speaking exam if she hadn’t taken marks away for hesitation. HESITATION!! Really!!?!? Who does that?? I thought teachers wanted us to succeed?  And then I had my ski accident that year which led to me missing loads if school. So instead of trying to help me catch up when I was on crutches, she told me that I wasn’t good enough to be at the school, or to repeat the year. May I just add that this was on my birthday! I mean that’s just cruel. Who yells at a 16 year old, crippled girl on her birthday in front of everyone! 

So last year I had this teacher called Dr Crees. But he don’t really give a damn what we did. He swore more than we did and encouraged us to skip assemblys. He also didn’t notice I left his form when I moved to the year below until last week. You wanna know when I moved. 10 freaking months ago!!! 10! Really!?!??

My current form teacher is a nightmare. Her name is Madame Rosier and she is a bit of a psycho. She has yelled at this guy called Max cause he is late a lot (because if the train by the way. Not his fault) and keeps threatening to call his parents. Who don’t even give a damn. She keeps telling us to pull out skirts (which aren’t short) down and tries to interfere in every little decision we make. She also never turns up on time, if at all.

So that’s my history with form tutors. What about yours? 

- Random Girl xxx

Mock Week is Over! 10 tips for revising!

Hey Guys! So mock week if finally over...for me anyway. Some unlucky people still have another two weeks of exams even though the official exam week is over! So today I am going to give you some of my tips for exams. Yes I know that sounds boring and if you have read some of my previous blog posts you will know that I suck at exams, but these tips are not your usual ones. These are all things that I have learnt this week

1. Do not get drunk in mock week unless you have either no exams the next day or you have already done a lot of revision. As you probably know I had my 18th Birthday in the middle of the week, and here in the UK I can now legally buy alcohol. This led to me being hungover the next day and probably not doing as well as I should have.

2. Ask for more paper before you run out of time. I only had a few minutes before the end and still had a lot to put down but ran out of paper. The exam invigilators (btw not sure if that is the right word) ended up taking 3 minutes which may not seem like much but is precious time that you will probably really have needed.

3.. Eat before the exam. I skipped breakfast one day and my stomach decided to remind me and everyone else throughout the exam how hungry I was. This is extremely awkward when it is very quiet.

4.  Do not Skype your friends. It wont just be a quick chat and you will most likely spend hours talking when you could be revising.

5. Organise your revision stuff BEFORE mock week. People always forget to tell me that. So always waste the first day tidying and reorganizing because of course your notes are going to be all over the place or your are going to be missing that really important textbook etc.

6. If you finish early, it is not the time to pick up your old art hobby by drawing on your exam paper. Your teacher will probably get more annoyed at you if you got things wrong when you had time to draw something.

7. Do not cram right before your exam. Before one of my exams most of my friends began stressing and freaking out. One got so worked up that she had to leave early and ended up failing. If you don't know it by then then you are too late. You will remember more of what you have revised it you stay calm or even distract yourself with something else, like the latest gossip before you enter the exam hall.

8. If you end up having one of your best friends sitting next to you, do not try to communicate with them, You are better off pretending they don't exist. Me and my friend had been practicing communicating to each other in exams since they weren't that important so luckily we didn't get caught. But if we had the consequences would have been severe and not worth it. Just resist talking to them until later.

9. For your revision, try looking up apps for your subjects. These can be very useful and allows you to revise whilst in the car, or in the lunch que, even the bath! Some are more suited for your exam subjects than others, so make sure you test them and see if they match your syllabus before you use them otherwise you may end up learning some extra information that you didn't need to know.

10. Make sure you look after yourself and don't get too carried away with revising. Once I lived off junk food and barely slept, revising till late hours and first thing in the morning. This led to me falling asleep and failing one of my actual exams last year! Eat healthy food, and get a goods night sleep. Without these you are more likely to do badly than benefit from the extra hours of work. Also remember to take breaks. Just not too many!

So those are my some of my tips for revising! Hope they were helpful. Please let me know if anything interesting or funny happened to you in your exams that you have learnt from!

-Random Girl xx

Random Update!

Hey everyone! Yes still here! I havnt posted in a while. If you have read my previous post you will know that I was on a trip! So did not have much free time. I also have mock week this week. For those of you who don't know what that is, it is basically a week of practice exams in exams conditions. So I've been busy revising... Fun! The other thing going on is that it is my 18th Birthday this week! Yay! Can't wait. So I may not post much in a while but will try to make it up to you. I have the 2nd part of the trip (much better than the 1st) coming up soon and I'm sure there will be posts all about my horrendous mocks and my birthday! 

Goodbye for now!

-Random Girl xx

Random Girl Blog Update

Hey Everyone! Just wanted to let you guys know that I am only posting about once a week (or more if my life gets more interesting and I am too impatient to wait and tell you). Otherwise you guys will probably get bored when I run out of things to talk about. Unfortunately it is also because I have my daunting mock exams coming up (yes i'm blaming school!) which some would describe as crushing darkness. I have been watching to many horror films instead of revising. Okay now I am rambling so this is probably a sign that I should stop typing now. Talk to you guys next week!

- Random Girl xxx

A Random School Day

Hey Everyone! Or nobody.. I'm not sure if anyone will bother to read this but I like to think that at least one person is, so this is for them.

So school. Everyone has to go through it at some stage but now I just can't wait for it to be over. I mean when are we really going to need to use half the stuff. Why do I need to know that the population of Somalia is 10, 251, 568? (And yes I did have to look that up again cause why the hell should I be able to remember that??) 

This summer I was so excited that I was finally entering my last year of school. We would be the oldest year, with our friends as leaders of all the clubs and as head boy and girl. We would have to most respect because we survived. But no. You want to know what happened?? I had to REPEAT THE YEAR!!! I was this close and then it all got ruined because I may have failed one too many exams.. okay that's a lie.. I failed them all. But still.. It's not my fault I suck at exams! Now all my friends are leaving me behind and I have to suffer though it all again. I'm also in a year that for some reason hate me.. I have a sneaky suspicion that it is because Willem (my neighbour who is in this year) told everyone that my parents are drug dealers! ( That's not true by the way in case that wasn't obvious)

So here is a bit about my sucky day at school. Today we have assembly, where we have to sit in a big freezing sports hall with the whole school whilst the headmaster drones on and on about something.. Not sure what cause I was paying attention. You just have to make sure that you clap on time and no one cares. The only good thing was that because we are the oldest (or second oldest I guess) we get to sit in the back. This means that we are all paying attention to what is on our phone screens  than the heads speech about our schools 35th birthday. (By the way Happy Birthday School!) After a while I start to find if feel bad for the headmaster is is oblivious to everyone's texting, snapchatting and in my case blogging.

So after THAT torture is over I have to go to Geography with the lovely Mr Barnett. For your information he gives us a test EVERY LESSON!! Yes. Every single one. So today of course we have a test. And if course I missed the lesson before and have no idea what it is about. So i just guess all the figures about Energy or whatever it was on. Let's just say it did not go well. Okay I got 1 out of 20. But again not my fault.

So after that disaster I had to go to learning support. For those of you who don't know what that is, it is basically extra lessons for dumb people. I mean I had to read about how to look after pet rats! I mean who the hell would want a rat around long enought to feed it and buy it a cage. They are just creepy and disturbing. This is why I have cats instead. They are cute and they kill the rats. 

Then I had a free period which instead of spending my time finishing my economics homework which was due last week (wow I sound like a awful student. maybe that's why I failed??) I am sitting in the school library ignoring everyone around me whilst I start writing this post for you guys. Or nobody. We will see. And obviously no one around seems to care that I had been typing my phone for 15 mins and no one asks why. Which is good. Because no one knows about this blog. And I like it that way. It allows me to be completely honest and talk about whoever I want without people hating me for it.

Now don't even get me started on what happened in Economics. My teacher Tom ditched us for a hockey match. Yes I did call him by his first name. That would be because he had been going out with my bestfriends mum for a year and I helped him get the job at my school. Well that was a stupid idea! He just gave us a quadrillion questions that HAD to be finished by the end of the lesson, and we weren't allowed to talk or check are book. But according to him it's NOT a test! Even though you have to be silent and not allowed to use your book. So once he left, what did we all do? We do what any bunch if teachers do? We talked and cheated our way through the hour. So for anyone who knows someone who is looking for a teaching job, don't reccomend then to your school. They may be nice at home but at school they could end up being a awful teacher that will probably help with lead you or failing your exams. Or in in my case, AGAIN. 

Anyway I think that is enough for now. I will leave you guys to continue with your lives. And for anyone who is at school today? Good luck! You going to need it!

-Random Girl xx

My First Post! :)

Hey! So this is my first post ever and I don't think I will get many (or any) followers but I thought it would be fun. So I will tell you a little bit about me. My mum is Colombian and and my dad is British. I have traveled the world from a young age. I lived on a boat and crossed the Atlantic, sailing around the Caribbean. I have also had many health issues from the age of 5 but I am finally getting better a bit over 10 years later. I failed the year last year so I am repeating (which sucks!). I also have very complicated friendships and way less boy drama than last year (which I will got to another time). I have no idea how this year is going to turn out. Will I make any friends in a year who seems to hate me? Will I meet a guy? Will I finially pass my exams? Will keep you posted! ;)