Feeling left out

Hey guys! So I am going to talk about the most amazing person I have ever known, my mum. Tonight she got upset, as she felt left out in a conversation or something that she was having with my dad and brother. I guess being a Colombian women, living in the English countryside, far away from her friends and family would make someone feel left out. Or in her words, an "alien". I then went outside when I found out she was upset. You see, I understand how she feels. It's actually one if the main reasons for this blog. I have always felt left out in life. When we travelled, I had no permanent friends. When I got sick, I couldn't play with the ones I did have. When I was at my old school, everyone were a lot more "grown up" than me. Well as grown up as a thirteen year old can get. And here, I almost feel more grown up than them half the time.

Yet, no matter how left out I have felt in my life, my mum is the one person who always made me feel like I belonged. She was my bestfriend when I had no one else. She cared for me when I was sick, leaving little time for herself. She taught me to be myself, even when everyone wanted me to blend in and be like them. No matter what she is and will always be there for me. If she is an alien, then I am her baby alien. And I hope she knows that I will be there for her too. She gives me the hope that one day, someday, I will find a place, or a group of people, or even a person that I fully belong with. She is my inspiration, and I love her with all my heart. 

At times in life, everyone will feel left out. But remember there is probably an alien around who feels the same way. Just have hope.

- Random Girl xx

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Hey everyone! As of right now I have 500 views! It may not be much compared to a lot of other blogs but it is a lot more than I ever expected.

Thank You For Reading!

-Random Girl xx

Family Favouritism

I freaking hate it here. Being at my grandmas sucks! And the only thing worse is that my cousin is here too. Frances and I have been competing for my grandmas attention our entire lives before we even knew it. It's not us that are actually competing. It's my grandmas favourtism that causes all the problems. It all began because the two of us are 5 days apart. And even as babies, my grandma had a favourite. And in case you hadn't noticed it's not me.

I heard a story that once my grandma and my mum went shopping. We had just arrived from Sailing in the Carribbean and I had no coats or jackets to keep me warm for the chilly British weather. By the way this was when I was about 2 years old. And every nice thing my mum found, my grandma took off her and said she was giving it to Frances. Who didn't need it by the way. Another time my grandma bought Frances a cute little onesie when we were babies and you know what I got? A devil costume. Literally. 

Ever since, without trying we have been I a competition for who has the best life. All I have heard for years from my grandma is-

"Frances is soo talented"

"Have you heard that Frances got excellent Grades"

"Frances did this amazing thing that one time" 

And blah blah blah.....

She constantly compared the two of us. And she never, ever talks about any of my accomplishments. Ever! Any time I try to tell her she just starts talking about Frances. It's horrible because I know I should be nice about my grandma as she is very old (97) and won't live much longer. But I'm just soo miserable here and it's only been an hour. I already feel like I wanna cry, and all I want to do is go home. I have no one to talk about this with either. 

My grandma also hasn't given me anything at all in 5 years. Do you know what she has given Frances in the last few weeks? A plane ticket, train tickets, paying her to visit, her university fees and a couple thousand pound piano!! I mean it's not about the money. It would just be nice to know that my grandma cared at all.. I mean even a card would have been nice! 

So let's hope I survive this stupid visit and hope that my grandma doesn't make too many comparisons between our lives. wish me luck! Can't wait for it to be over!

- Random Girl xx

Easter Travels

Hey Guys! So sorry I haven't posted anything in ages! School was hectic and then I've been travelling around the country a bit. I mean, I have packed and unpacked 6 times in just as many days! Where am I going? Well nowhere interesting really. Everyone is in nice exotic places and I'm stuck in windy, rainy England. Don't get me wrong. I love England but the weather is really a downer.

So I went to Exeter to visit my friend Kat, and then home. Train back awful. Bunch of little kids screaming at eachother and running up and down the aisle. I also had to sit next to a grumpy old man who kept elbowing me, which led to me being squished against the aisle of screaming kids and being hit my peoples suitcases. And then to top it off? When I finally got to the station, no one came to pick me up so I had to walk through town to find my mum.. And I have never walked from the station to town before so that was an interesting experience.

I then had a hectic day of driving lessons, physio and hairdressing appointments, followed by packing.. Again! I am currenty in the car for a 8 hour journey across the country with my family, casually listening to Backstreet Boys! For those of you who don't know who get are, you are missing out! I was obsessed with them when I was 3, so in 2000. Wow that was 15 years ago. That makes me feel old. The reason for this trip is to visit my grandma, who honestly none of us really want to go and see but all know it could be the last time. No one has out right said it but it's what we are all thinking. That's the only reason why I have let my family drag me on this trip. So now I'm going to have to go and deal with mice, and evil twin cousin (will explain later) and an old house that I am severely allergic to. 

Wish me luck! Hope you guys all have a better Easter weekend than me!

-Random Girl xx

Are all Teachers Hypocrites?

Hey Guys! So I’m wondering. What it going on with teachers? When I was younger my teachers were okay. But now they are all just huge hypocrites or to be honest just a bully. Form teachers are the worst though. 

So my first one at this school was Mrs Lugg. I was about 13 which is an awkward stage for any girl especially when you have just moved across the country and are going to school with boys for the first time. So this teacher didn’t help as she spent the majority her time yelling at us in front of the boys about shorts skirts and wearing makeup. To be fair we were like the rebellious class so she had a lot to deal with, but still! We stressed her out so much that she ended up having a heart attack and got sent away in an ambulance. And she never had a form again.

Then there was Mrs Jupp. She was the biggest bitch of them all. She was also my Spanish teacher at the time, even though she is English. And her Spanish was crap.. I mean I would know, seeing as I am half Colombian and all.. I would have got 100% I’m my Spanish speaking exam if she hadn’t taken marks away for hesitation. HESITATION!! Really!!?!? Who does that?? I thought teachers wanted us to succeed?  And then I had my ski accident that year which led to me missing loads if school. So instead of trying to help me catch up when I was on crutches, she told me that I wasn’t good enough to be at the school, or to repeat the year. May I just add that this was on my birthday! I mean that’s just cruel. Who yells at a 16 year old, crippled girl on her birthday in front of everyone! 

So last year I had this teacher called Dr Crees. But he don’t really give a damn what we did. He swore more than we did and encouraged us to skip assemblys. He also didn’t notice I left his form when I moved to the year below until last week. You wanna know when I moved. 10 freaking months ago!!! 10! Really!?!??

My current form teacher is a nightmare. Her name is Madame Rosier and she is a bit of a psycho. She has yelled at this guy called Max cause he is late a lot (because if the train by the way. Not his fault) and keeps threatening to call his parents. Who don’t even give a damn. She keeps telling us to pull out skirts (which aren’t short) down and tries to interfere in every little decision we make. She also never turns up on time, if at all.

So that’s my history with form tutors. What about yours? 

- Random Girl xxx

My Dramatic first night out!

Hey Guys! I'm really sorry I abandoned my blog for a bit. Been super busy with school ect.. Anyway as you can see by the title I am gonna tell you guys about what happened when I went out for the first time ever on Saturday.

So there is this guy from school whose birthday is the week after mine and EVERYONE in sixth form (last two years of school) were going out to celebrate it. No one cares about my birthday that much :( Anyway so me and my friend Ally got ready at mine and planned on getting a lift with my neighbor Willem and his mum as they were also going out that night. Now in case you didn't read one of my earliest posts (which is understandable as I don't really expect anyone to read EVERY post) you would know that Willem is an annoying neighbor who is my age and goes to my school. He also told everyone that my parents were drug dealers. He also randomly turned up at my house on Christmas cause he got bored at his, and his mum has for some reason hated mine ever since. Don't ask me why cause I honesty have no idea why. And just to make this car journey even more awkward not that long ago Ally and Willem decided to make out and have sort of hated each other since. I don't get that either. Who would want to make out with him???? This is also the first time I have ever seen him drive and lets just say it was a miracle that he managed to get us there alive,

So then me and Ally go to Tesco to buy more alcohol (btw we had been drinking since 5pm, so about 3 hours before). As we were going to pay we also bumped into the school Rev whilst we were holding a bottle of vodka. That was even more awkward than the car journey. Especially as he chose this moment to start talking to us.

We then left to go and meet up with a friend and continue drinking. Now I must admit I don't remember much of this part of the night but I remember calling another friend to come and meet us, going to Subway and meeting these random two guys (one of which was having girlfriend problems). We then finally went inside to a bar, where me and Ally managed to sneak our under age friends into, and met up with some of the guys including the birthday boy. We then leave to go to a club when we see one of they guys' friend who is very drunk outside throwing up everywhere. There is this really hot random guy there who was making sure he was okay. Now I was still pretty drunk when this part happened but I just remember talking to this guy for a while outside and then realise that my friend has disappeared. When I eventually find her, all the others are gone, He is with the drunk guy and is calling an ambulance cause he got ditched and is passed out. Told you it was a dramatic night! So a while after that is kind of boring but he basically gets taken away to the boarding house where he lives and me and Ally go to the next club. Cause at the end of the day he is not our friend and there was nothing more we could do.

To continue, I moved on to the next club with a very annoyed Ally as her sort of boyfriend is friends with the drunk guy and ditched him. So I then announce that we need more shots (bad idea). At the last club, everyone from school is there and we are all having a great time!

At home everything took a turn for the worse and me and Ally ended up throwing up and feeling like S**t the next day. Turns out I was ill anyway which is why I am now at home, missing school and blogging instead!

So I am going to go and watch some movies now and play The Sims 4! If any of you have any interesting stories about your nights out let me know! would love to hear them! Also one piece of advice, don't have a shot everytime you feel awkward or bored. They are gonna add up eventually and it will sooooo not be worth it!

- Random Girl xxx

Mock Week is Over! 10 tips for revising!

Hey Guys! So mock week if finally over...for me anyway. Some unlucky people still have another two weeks of exams even though the official exam week is over! So today I am going to give you some of my tips for exams. Yes I know that sounds boring and if you have read some of my previous blog posts you will know that I suck at exams, but these tips are not your usual ones. These are all things that I have learnt this week

1. Do not get drunk in mock week unless you have either no exams the next day or you have already done a lot of revision. As you probably know I had my 18th Birthday in the middle of the week, and here in the UK I can now legally buy alcohol. This led to me being hungover the next day and probably not doing as well as I should have.

2. Ask for more paper before you run out of time. I only had a few minutes before the end and still had a lot to put down but ran out of paper. The exam invigilators (btw not sure if that is the right word) ended up taking 3 minutes which may not seem like much but is precious time that you will probably really have needed.

3.. Eat before the exam. I skipped breakfast one day and my stomach decided to remind me and everyone else throughout the exam how hungry I was. This is extremely awkward when it is very quiet.

4.  Do not Skype your friends. It wont just be a quick chat and you will most likely spend hours talking when you could be revising.

5. Organise your revision stuff BEFORE mock week. People always forget to tell me that. So always waste the first day tidying and reorganizing because of course your notes are going to be all over the place or your are going to be missing that really important textbook etc.

6. If you finish early, it is not the time to pick up your old art hobby by drawing on your exam paper. Your teacher will probably get more annoyed at you if you got things wrong when you had time to draw something.

7. Do not cram right before your exam. Before one of my exams most of my friends began stressing and freaking out. One got so worked up that she had to leave early and ended up failing. If you don't know it by then then you are too late. You will remember more of what you have revised it you stay calm or even distract yourself with something else, like the latest gossip before you enter the exam hall.

8. If you end up having one of your best friends sitting next to you, do not try to communicate with them, You are better off pretending they don't exist. Me and my friend had been practicing communicating to each other in exams since they weren't that important so luckily we didn't get caught. But if we had the consequences would have been severe and not worth it. Just resist talking to them until later.

9. For your revision, try looking up apps for your subjects. These can be very useful and allows you to revise whilst in the car, or in the lunch que, even the bath! Some are more suited for your exam subjects than others, so make sure you test them and see if they match your syllabus before you use them otherwise you may end up learning some extra information that you didn't need to know.

10. Make sure you look after yourself and don't get too carried away with revising. Once I lived off junk food and barely slept, revising till late hours and first thing in the morning. This led to me falling asleep and failing one of my actual exams last year! Eat healthy food, and get a goods night sleep. Without these you are more likely to do badly than benefit from the extra hours of work. Also remember to take breaks. Just not too many!

So those are my some of my tips for revising! Hope they were helpful. Please let me know if anything interesting or funny happened to you in your exams that you have learnt from!

-Random Girl xx