21st Birthday and Life in General

So another year goes by and I'm just a little but older. A few weeks ago I had my birthday, yes I usually post on my birthday but I was very busy. I went to see Imagine Dragons in Birmingham and I swear to god was one of the best things I have ever witnessed. If your a fan, PLEASE go and see them. I would love to see them again if anyone wants to buy me tickets ;)

Anyway I turned 21 in the car on the way back to my flat singing songs with friends and family. Then had my birthday morning with my parents, brother and my boyfriend which ended up being about my parents telling me to hurry up and me bossing them around telling them I will take as long as I want opening my presents. Then we went to the pub where we met with cousins and family friends for a crazy lunch full of little kids. Okay three but they seemed to outnumber us despite there being like 12 adults. After that by family left and had a lovely lazy evening with my boyfriend watching movies.

So you would think that was it for the celebrations right? haha no. So on the following Thursday, I went out with my boyfriend and work friends. I was excited to introduce my boyfriend to my friends and they were hitting it off until my stupid boyfriend got drunk and threw up in the middle of the club and got kicked out. So not only did we have to leave just after some of my friends arrived but then he threw up all over the side of the taxi and I got charged extra for it. AND he threw up in our bed so I spent the night on the sofa and looking after him. You would think I would be furious for ruining my night but he was so pathetic and apologetic the next day I couldn't be mad at him.

Continuing this, we had a huge snow storm so my friends who were meant to be visiting the next weekend couldn't make it. But we went to this mini golf bar place and then out clubbing where I worked with my other friends and it was great.

And that was where my week long celebrations ended. So what else? Life in general in very unexciting. I go to uni and sit alone at home whilst my boyfriend works all day. Sometimes go out with friends. Sometimes my boss guilts me into actually working.

I feel like my friends are all in a very different stage in life compared to me. I have friends finishing up uni and trying to decide what to do with their lives, friends who are completely unsure uni was the right decision and are looking into something new. But they are all back home and I am the only one who is out at uni full time. I love my life here but I have been a little home sick lately. They are all busy working full time and I am just sat here watching Netflix yet again thinking to myself that I really need a hobby. Does shopping count? Or sleeping?

I feel kind of stuck in my life and even though I have everything I could possibly want, a great flat, an amazing boyfriend who lives with me, going out with friends, a funnish job, a uni course I am interested in... I am still bored. I guess my teenage years were so dramatic that my great life is just kind of dull. I need excitement in my life. The need to do something new or different always crosses my mind. I just wish I knew what was missing...

Sorry if I sound like such a whiner when people have major problems with their lives. I hope you don't hate me. I have genuinely had proper issues that I haven't spoken about on here so I am not oblivious. I just happen to be in a good stage of my life.

-Anyways there you go, just another random post from a random girl x

Happy New Years! Goodbye 2017

Dear people of the internet, I write to you at the end of the year, drinking, as usual. So two years ago I made predictions for the year and then last year I wrote about how my year actually went. I didn't really prepare anything for this year so I will just tell you about my year.

January, I was at home (parents house) for the christmas holidays, had my one year anniversary with my boyfriend, and thats about it. Then February was my 20th, my boyfriend went to come visit me at uni and I ate a lot of cake. March I was finishing up my assignments and had my accounting exam (which I got an A in after revising three hours), before heading home early and finishing my assignments there. April was working at my local pub once again, becoming the coffee queen and celebrating easter! May through to September I continued working full time and then moved in with my boyfriend back at uni. October was spent buying furniture, visiting my friend in Edinburgh, working at my new job in a club and dressing up for halloween. November was assignments :( sad times. And lastly December was spent finishing the semester, doing an exam, christmas back at home and tonight going out with the girls and having raspberry vodka slushies.

So overall, a very uneventful year other than moving in with my boyfriend. So what about 2018? Well I have no idea what I am gonna do. Finish 2nd year and start 3rd. Work at the club and maybe somewhere else. Love my boyfriend. But what about more unpredictable things? Hoping to get a summer internship. I hope to travel somewhere new as I haven't been anywhere in well over a year. uh... be happy? Thats about it really.

Sorry for the very uninteresting post.

Happy New Year Everyone!

- Random Girl xx

Bartending (The Pros and Cons)

Heya guys! So recently I started working in a club a couple times a week. And it has been eventful. I had all these worries about working late nights and excitements at the same time. So for anyone who is considering working in a club then here are some pros and cons that I have noticed over the last two weeks. P.S These won't apply to everyone, just based off personal opinion.

PROS-

1. Skipping Queues- Probably can get away with never queuing again to get into the club :)

2. Personal Bodyguards- Okay not quite, but befriending the bouncers is a good idea to make you feel safer. Plus as scary as they look they are usually really friendly.

3. Discounts on drinks- I assume? I mean I haven't bought any yet but we will see. I know that we can buy a whole bottle of something, really cheaply, on Saturdays though.

4. Good music- Not many jobs out there where you can listen to music the whole shift.

5. Info- Knowing the best rooms, fastest queuing bars, cleanest toilets etc can be handy.

6. Power- Sometimes you can yell at people. Its fun :) was helping out in the cloakroom and got to yell at people for not having their ticket to redeem their jackets. Funny watching confused , angry drunk people get frustrated but can't do anything.

7. New Friends- Though this applies everywhere really.

8. Free Days- Because shifts start so late, you have the whole day free to do uni work, go to lectures, hang with your friends etc.

9. Safety- The bar and the bouncers will protect you.

10. Fun- There is a constant stream of entertainment from drunk people, or can do some dancing behind the bar. Generally always enjoying myself.

CONS-

1. Late Hours- Despite the free days, you do have to work till like 3am and if you have a 9am the next day you might as well not bother thinking of going in.

2. Transport- Due to late hours, it is very difficult to get home without a car. Especially on a Saturday night where you finish very late and is basically Sunday morning so there are barely any buses running.

3. Hot- It can get fun and you can't escape the bar but its okay. Just deal with it and move on.

4. Can't get drunk- Every so often you get jealous that everyone can dance and drink and you can't, but at least you won't be waking up with a hangover the next day.

5. Attention- Unwanted attention may I add. I got asked out by 5 guys in one night and physically harassed by two. Being Surrounded by drunk guys that you are forced to talk puts more attention on yourself than you would normally have.

6. The Smell- Its gross. But again you get over it.

7. Foreign People- I am not trying to be mean. I mean technically my mum is foreign so I'm not trying to discriminate. I specifically mean those who don't speak english and get angry at you for misunderstanding the order. If you can't speak english well then fair enough but if I show you a bottle of something and you nod to it, and then two seconds look at me like what is this (right after I have shown you) then this is not my fault. Don't get angry at me.

8. Bar Lurkers- The people who stand in front of the bar but don't order anything. Just MOVE. Please. If you don't want a drink go somewhere else, all you do is block the people who do want a drink and prevent me from doing my job.

9. It's loud- But I don't mind loud so not really a con for me.

10. Smelling gross at the end of the night- By the end you might smell like alcohol and sweat (not in the good way, if there is one?) but a nice hot shower before bed will fix that :)

Anyway there are my pro and cons. Anyone agree or disagree?

-Random Girl xx

My TV Shows Are Over 😩

Okay so I know that once again I haven't posted in a while but I am gonna get straight to the point on this one because I need to ramble.

ALL MY TV SHOWS ARE OVERRRRRR!!!

😫😨😤😵😢😡😱

^^^ some of the emotions I'm feeling right now. 

Has a sudden realisation that all my favourite TV shows from the last ten odd years have finished this year.

Here is a list of some of the TV shows that are no longer with us, may they rest in peace.

1. Vampire Diaries- how will we cope with out Damon's gorgeous good looks and the general amazingness when it comes to our love for vampires.

2. Pretty Little Liars- no more theories on who A is. It's all over. No mystery left for us to solve. 

3. Orphan Black- may not be as popular as the others but will miss the never ending discovery of new Lena clones and all thier different personalities.

4. Switched at Birth- again not the most popular but will still be missed.

5. Teen Wolf- the most important of all. How will I love without Dylan O'Brien every week and Scotts pack of wolves?

So now I basically only have greys anatomy to look forward to but we all know it's going to end at some point. I mean we are on season 14 now. 

Please any suggestions for new shows would be great as (in case you couldn't guess) I am a TV fanatic and I have nothing to watch. 

They will all be missed dearly.

- Lots of Love, a mourning Random Girl x

End of 1st Year

Sorry it has been so long. In my defence I was very busy with final assignments, exams, moving and work. On the bright side I got a 2:1 this year and an A in my accounting and finance exam :) 

So what is happening? Honestly not a lot. I'm trying to work hard and save money for next year but this week my shifts keep getting cancelled so I'm not earning any money. Which is really annoying me. You would think I would be happy with the free time but I'm just so bored. And I want money :p at least I have a second job soon but it's only 10 hours a week. At this rate I'm gonna need a third job that isn't affected so much by the weather. 

I'm still happy in a relationship. There was a rocky three days but things are improving and have been making up a lot ;) 

So I think what I need is a hobby. I used to love writing but I now struggle to come up with anything. Which is annoying because it would be the perfect thing to do with my alone time and I found out about a publishing company but would either need to "spice up" my old stuff or write something you. But can't think of anything to write. 

What else... My grandma and aunt are visiting. I love them but they are driving me a little crazy. They just don't leave you alone. And they took my newly finished room so I'm stuck in the spare room on a rock hard bed so I haven't slept in 4 days. 

I also visited my old school with my best friend because we got invited to talk to my brothers year about university. Which led to her and all my old teachers deciding that I should be a teacher. Which I am actually considering. But I would probably do it like 5-10 years after I graduate. 

So now I'm just chilling in bed yet again trying to work out how I am going to spend my day instead of working. 

Any suggestions?

-Random Girl xx

No Longer a Teenager

Hey! So in case you couldn't work out from the title, I am no longer a teenager! So what does that mean for the girl who has a blog called The Random Life of a Teenage Girl? Well I have no idea. I am currently just winging it. Might make a new blog, or might just change the title. But The Random Life of a Twenty Year Old Girl doesn't quite have the same ring to it.

So what is it like being twenty? Well so far its been a week and I don't feel any different. I don't feel maturer, or older. I feel just as hormonal and stressed with uni life. Earlier on Skype with my friends and said something like "well the adults say..." then realising we are all adults. But what makes you an adult? Being 18? When you can vote? or 20 like me? and not being a teenager? Or 21? not really sure why that number is important in the UK. Or when you get a real job? or when you get married? when you have a kid? at this stage I don't think I will ever feel like an official adult. Maybe it just sneaks up on you?

So lets just see what happens with the blog but its not going anywhere for now.

- Lots of love, Random Girl xx

My Start to 2017

Ready for some random rambling? Cause that is about all I have for you guys right now. So this year was meant to be the year where everything got better but that hasn't really worked out great. I started the year completely broke. Then I failed my driving test. And an hour after that my grandma died. Sucks right?

Death is a weird thing to process and understand. Other than my kitten Pepi dying when I was 12 I haven't really experienced what it is like for someone I love to die. My grandma and I weren't very close though. Which makes it even harder for me to understand how to feel.

Why weren't we close? Well it all has to do with the bad luck of being born 5 days after my cousin Francis. She is the daughter my grandma's only daughter. And my dad was the middle child to make things even worse. So there was always some sort of favouritism towards her. I actually think I wrote a post about it around last easter or the easter before that. So in the end its not really that we didn't love each other. She just loved my cousin more.

And now she is gone. No more conversations about what I am doing with my life. No more losing at scrabble against her. No more her. It is strange to think someone you have known your whole life is just gone. Forever. And as horrible as it was sometimes I will miss her. Next week I am going to her house for the funeral and I am pretty sure it will hit me much harder that she is not alive anymore. The only good thing really is that she is hopefully more at peace than she was at 97 years old. She lived her life and now it is time for her to move on.

So what else? Well I go back to uni now. Like literally now I am writing this as I travel 6 hours up country on the train. The first 40 minutes of the train was awful. My boyfriend once again dropped me off at the station to say goodbye. Again. I am so fed up of goodbyes. But hopefully he will be in Oxford next year. And he is coming up for my birthday soon.

Speaking of my birthday. On February 25th 2017 I am no longer a teenager as I turn 20. So what does that mean for this blog? I have no idea. I never thought I would be writing on here for this long. So what does Random Girl do when her blog is about being a teenager? Maybe I should start a new one. No idea what to call it though. And then I would have to start all over again. Or I could change the title? If anyone has any suggestions that would be great.

Maybe this year I will actually keep my promise to myself about writing more. So the countdown to the end of my teenage years in on. Let me know what you think.

- Random Girl x

New Year- 2016 Review

So unless you have been living under a rock, you must have realised that for the world in general, 2016 was one of the worst years ever in many people's opinion. Though I agree it sucked I still think the years where we had wars or even the plague could be considered worse. But for many young people who live in what people used to call first world countries (though thats now considered outdated according to my A-level Geography essay from two years ago) it has been somewhat of a tragedy. Of course the terrorist attacks where awful and the deaths of well known people aka celebrities was upsetting, but otherwise I think I had a pretty decent year.

Anyway, a year ago I made predictions of how my year would go. I should have probably kept note of my predictions every month but being the lazy girl I am, I decided to try and remember when I write this. So may not be majorly accurate but the important things should be correct.

Original Prediction- January- Boy Drama. Not sure of what kind. Friendship or other, but I reckon boys are gonna be stressing me out a lot this month.

What really happened?- This was very accurate. But to be fair this was the same month I wrote this. There was a guy at school who was basically a huge dick to me because I rejected him. He told the whole school I was a cheating bitch or something so literally everyone except like three people hated me in all of sixth form. So out of like 250 people. But not everything was bad. I started going out with a guy who I'm still completely in love with and we will be celebrating out one year anniversary on the 15th of January. A year today he got into a car accident which led to us talking and even though it was a horrible thing to happen to him, it led to something amazing.

Original Prediction- February- Of course there is my 19th Birthday. But that isn't a prediction of course. And there is mock exams. Again, I already know that. Hopefully, I will have passed my driving test by then? Maybe. And hopefully pass my exams.

What really happened?- Well I still haven't passed my driving test. So obviously that didn't happen. I did however pass my mocks. Barely but enough to get the grades I would need to get into uni. Also on my birthday my mum wasn't there because she had to fly to Colombia for a family emergency and my dad forgot to pick me and my brother up from school so I missed half of my birthday party. Luckily my boyfriend rescued us from a restaurant where I got myself drunk on cocktails as I waited to get picked up.

Original Prediction- March- Something new will happen. A new hobby, a new friend, maybe even a relationship (though I doubt it.) Something will change, even if only temporarily.

What really happened?- Uh, honestly don't think much happened this month. I can't remember anything memorable at least. Was probably just stressing about exams. There was this one girl I made friends with who happened to start going out with that guy who was a dick to me in January. Which obviously made him hate me more even though I genuinely liked her and we never talked about him.

Original Prediction- April- Hopefully by then it will be sunny. Maybe I will start running? Haha. Yeah, right. I can always dream though. Right?

What really happened?- I did start running but I think that was like two months later and honestly just a handful of times. I think I just spend all of my time working at my local pub or revising. Was just very busy with the easter holidays.

Original Prediction- May- Exam time! One of two things will happen. I will either be way to stressed or way to calm. I am going to go with calm as my prediction. Stress will probably come in later.

What really happened?- Well can't remember how stressed I was but I think I was calm. Revised a lot for once and took all my AS exams. Even managed to fit in a three day holiday with my boyfriend to Thorpe Park which was honestly some of the best days of my life. We stayed at the park so we were there before the guests arrived every morning and got a fast track past for two hours for both mornings. So we managed to go on literally every ride in the park.

Original Prediction- June- Finishing off exams. Will be bittersweet. I will be excited to be done with school, but I know I will feel sad about leaving. I am quite a sentimental person. So a lot of goodbyes.

What really happened?- So I did my A2 exams which were scary. Was relieved that I finally finished economics after three years instead of two. Was actually pretty happy to leave the school at this point because I was fed up of being there an extra year and just wanted to get away to uni.

Original Prediction- July- If I do manage to raise the money I need then I should be somewhere in the U.S by then. Yes, American readers, I am invading your country. You have been warned! And Canada too! Let's not forget about you guys. (If I have any Canadian readers, of course).

What really happened?- I did end up going to the US and Canada. Was joined by my cousin and had an amazing time in the US visiting theme parks. However, Canada sucked. Please don't be offended Canadians. Your country was pretty cool but I had some issues with the cousins I was staying with. Just felt awkward the whole time and ended up leaving a week early.

Original Prediction- August- This will be the end of my travelling. I will probably be very stressed about exam results and getting into University. Then I will be busy preparing to leave and sad about leaving my parents. Probably involves a whole lot of crying.

What really happened?- So got home at the end of July because of previous said problems. Was more impatient than stressed about results. And more screaming than crying because I ended up with higher grades than expected and got into my first choice. Thats right, I finally passed economics. Not just passed but got a B which was a grade higher than what I needed. I am still thrilled when I think about it. Recently found out I was the only person in the year who was allowed to apply for adjustment which basically means I was the only one who got higher than predicted grades in the year. Which is awesome. Got very excited about shopping for uni stuff and planning my accommodation where I found out my friend ended up in the same flat as me.

Original Prediction- September- University! And what comes with starting uni? FRESHERS WEEK! So basically I will be drunk most the time. Making friends and maybe a few who are more than that. You get me?

What really happened?- Well, this was an eventful month. I packed for uni, said goodbye to my friends, and got stung in the eye by a wasp which caused it to swell up and for me to end up in minor injuries two days before I left for Oxford. This leads to me meeting everyone at freshers week with a swollen eye. I met my flatmates and made some friends in my accommodation. Went out a couple of times during freshers week but not every night because I'm human. And lazy. Definitely didn't meet anyone who was more than a friend for the obvious reason of being in a relationship.

Original Prediction- October- Homesickness. Maybe some sort of other drama in the mix. Boy drama. Friend drama. Family drama. Something along those lines.

What really happened?- I didn't end up getting that homesick because I went home twice. Once because I sort of had a week off and then a second time to get a tattoo! Yes an actual permanent tattoo. Mum only found out this month and not sure if my dad knows or not. Not really any drama from what I remember.

Original Prediction- November- Christmas is approaching! Lots of lights, got chocolates. Maybe someone, to cuddle up with to keep warm. Then again, probably not. That doesn't sound like me. But I could be a whole different person by then.

What really happened?- Was pretty homesick this month even though I got stuck in Cornwall for two weeks due to trains being cancelled from bad weather. Went home for my brothers birthday where his party of twenty soon turned into a raging drug fuelled party of 50 where people got kicked out and furniture was destroyed. There are still bloodstains on my stairs. Then didn't really socialise because I was really busy with assignments.

Original Prediction- December- The end of the year. Of course there is the holidays. Will probably be working at the local pub. Just happy to see my old friends. So basically, happy. And who doesn't love the extra Christmas and New Years parties?

What really happened?- Well I finished my assignments. Came home early due to having no exams (go coursework!) and started working at the local pub. However, I ended up being sick the day before I left Oxford which was the beginning of December and I am still sick now at the beginning of January. Been to hospital twice so far and had to stop working. Will be okay I think but is taking forever to get better. Haven't had a chance to see my friends but have spent a lot of time with my family and my boyfriend :) Spent Christmas with my best friend's family, my family and my boyfriend who joined later in the evening. Then spent New Years with his family. 

So that is about it really. My whole year summed up. May make predictions about this year but won't make them yet. There is currently too many what ifs. Like where will I live next year and will me and my boyfriend still be together. Too scary to think about right now. 

Hope everyone has a better year than 2016. Let's see what 2017 brings us!

-Random Girl xx

Just My Luck Follow Up

So I recently found out my highest viewed post other than my first one was Just My Luck. Reading it I found it kind of hilarious. It was about having a slight crush on someone and having very low expectations of what was going to happen. I definitely didn't expect that we would end up completely in love with each other and even planning to move in together in September. So I thought for anyone who read it and wanted an update, I would write this post. Here is the original:

Hey everyone! Look! I have actually been posting stuff lately! So today I am going to talk about crushes. You see, I am a strange person. I don't really get crushes or feelings. Like ever. I am the kind of person who if on holiday, I may see a particular guy I find attractive and keep and eye out for or something but never beyond that. And it takes me forever to realise I am into a person. Then, a few days after my sudden realisation, I get bored of them and move on.

But this time it is slightly different. So I met this guy. And I have no idea what my feelings are, and if I really even have any at all. But I think I like him as more than a friend. And that doesn't mean I want to be in a relationship with him but at least friends is nice. Sure, we flirt a lot but I am one of those natural flirts who sorts of does that with everyone without realising. But for once, whatever I am feeling hasn't gone away. In fact the more we talk the worse it gets.

And then with my luck, guess what happens next. He gets into a freaking car accident. Similar to the one I was in a few months ago, but a little bit more serious. He broke his collar bone and now we won't see each other for weeks. On the bright side, we talk on Facebook now ;)

So anyway, there is a little insight to how my feelings work. Anyone else like this?

- A very confused Random Girl xxx

I find it hard to believe that I didn't have this amazing guy in my life before. Someone who I can be completely myself with and tell anything to. When I was having the shittiest time he suddenly came into my life and turned it around. He better not ever read this, though it is possible as he found out how to find it when I told him about my blog 8 months into our relationship. If you are reading this love you, you idiot. 

- Lots of love, a loved up Random Girl xx

University Week 5 (first month)

Hey everyone! So uni has been interesting to say the least. Most of it good and some of it bad. So for those of you who haven't been at uni, this what the first few weeks are like. Or at least for me.

When I first arrived, I found it really easy. There is just some sort of confidence in knowing that everyone is exactly like you,  not knowing anyone. It's easy to just go up to people and start talking because you know they don't really have anyone else to talk to anyway. The first night I just went out with my flatmates and got to know them. Then one day I decided to randomly explore my accommodation and try and meet people, convincing the rest of my flatmates to come with. That's when we met the flat directly below us and we have all been friends since. Our two flats plus a few extras now get together regularly for pres or to hang out.

So finding friends where I live was easy. What I didn't expect to be difficult was finding course friends. I have two of my flatmates with me for my business half but when it comes to the media half I haven't really met anyone I like. By the time actual lectures started everyone already had their friends and that confidence was gone. It became a lot harder to talk to people and when you did there was no expectation of being friends. I still hope that I might make some eventually.

What else should I mention? The work?

Well that has been pretty damn boring. I either don't understand it at all or I already know it. Lectures have because pointless thanks to the Internet and having all the information on the Internet. It's especially hard when you have lectures from 9am to 7pm an hour away from where you live every Monday. I usually pick one or two things to go to.

Readings and assignments have been okay so far. Even without turning up to the lectures. However that doesn't stop the whole new kind of dread for Mondays.

Because of my horrific Monday's I have the rest of the week free except two hours on Thursday mornings. So that's a plus. What do I do in all this time? Well there always seems to be something to do. Laundry, cleaning the bathroom, the bedroom, the kitchen, uni work, shopping for food, cooking three meals a day, talking to flatmates, skyping old friends, visits or visiting my boyfriend, or going to London like I am right now :) Oh and let's not forget Netflix. There is always something to do or somewhere to be. Uni is busy.

So that's my first month of uni. Anyone else have stories to share or questions to ask?

-Random Girl x

University Week 0 (aka Freshers)

Hey everyone! So I am very sorry that I haven't posted. Yes again. But I have a good excuse this time, I promise. I finally made it to uni! I moved up here, spent two days unpacking, and then had a week of induction talks and going out.

So lets start of with my flatmates because you need to have a rough idea of who they are if I talk about them in future posts. First I met David. He is the only boy in our flat, and an Irish cricket plater. He was really nice and helpful when moving in because he helped bring all my stuff up three flights of stairs. Then there is Kat. Who has happened to be my friend for six years. It was a complete coincidence to be in the same flat together. Then there is Liv who is really nice, even though she forced me to go ice skating with her and I injured my shoulder. But at least she took me to A&E. And last is Anabelle who is the girliest in our flat. To be honest she spends more time downstairs than with us but she's cool. Just leaves behind a trail of mess every so often.

There isn't much more to say other than going out and meeting people. But will keep you updated. Or I will at least try.

Hope all the freshers out there are having a good time!

-Random Girl x

All the ways I nearly died on holiday

So I realised the other day that I never told you how my holiday went. But then I also realised that it would be pretty boring for you to read. So instead I have decided to tell you all about all the ways I nearly died on my holiday. Okay I am exaggerating a little but here is my list anyway.

1. Hit by Lightning: Me and my cousin went to Universal Studios where there was a huge thunder storm (normal for Florida but not so much for me), Before I knew it the park was flooded to above my ankles and we were completely drenched. Then to add to it all there was lightning hitting the park. The problem was my aunt and uncle was picking us up at this exact moment so we were running through the park, building to building, taking cover from the lightning.

2. Death by Firework: So obviously, it's 4th of July and we went to watch the fireworks by the lake. A family were setting off fireworks right next to us. We were enjoying the view when all of a sudden I hear the guy who was setting it up start swearing and screaming. I spot him running away from the firework. So we all duck as this firework flies towards us instead of the sky like its suppose to. If there hadn't been a wall there for it to crash into then it would have definitely blown up right in my face.

3. Eaten by Dinosaurs: Okay obviously not real dinosaurs but one came of from underwater to "attack" the ride I was on. I only mention this one because my brother and my boyfriend joked about me getting eaten by alligators and this was the closest I got.

4. Plummet to my Death: I love rollercoasters but this one rollercoaster had a ver long, deep drop which is the first time I really freaked out on a roller coater. Screaming louder than I ever have before, I plummeted. Luckily I survived.

5. Drown in Datona Beach: We went to the beach where there were huge waves which we were riding on bodyboards and floaties. One time we flipped over and I kind of started drowning. But don't worry I survived.

6. Dehydration/Sunburn: After nearly drowning, I was completely sunburnt from head to toe. Hurt like hell. Didn't sleep for two weeks afterwards.

7. Starvation: The least interesting one was, I didn't eat for two days. I don't know why.

So there was probably more but that is all I remember. So that was my brief summary of my holiday.

-Random Girl x

A Level Results and University Confirmations

HEY! So I have been crazy busy. So I am extremely sorry about not posting. So 18th of August is the dreaded day. Basically doomsday for everyone finishing A Levels as it basically determines our future. It tells us if the last two years (or three in my case) of our lives was actually worth anything. I has nightmares the night before for the entire night about everything that could have gone wrong. Not getting the grades I need to get into university or not understanding what my results are.

So the morning of the 18th, I wake up at about 7:30am which is half an hour until the official release of results. So after taking care of business (brushing my teeth etc) I open my school email, my normal email and my UCAS track all next to each other for me to clearly see. And there on UCAS was my confirmation letter from my university announcing I had achieved my results and got in. I couldn't believe it. I didn't even know what I had gotten yet and I knew I was in. I actually made it. My reaction was a mixture of crying in my bed and jumping up and down, screaming at my parents.

For me this was a huge achievement because I am really bad at exams, had two surgeries and got told by a million teachers that they never expected me to be able to get into university. So the odds were against me to say the least. For someone who was predicted three C's, eventually finding out I got three B's felt pretty amazing. The fact that I managed to prove everyone wrong just felt incredible.

I then find out that out of 10,000 people, my best friend and I have ended up in the same flat together. Which is a huge coincidence too.

So yeah its been crazy. Been sorting out accommodation, paying deposits, enrolling online, buying freshers tickets, stalking Facebook for my new flatmates and buying stuff. Still have a lot more to do between now and when I leave on the 16th of August but will try my best to post at least a few times.

Thank you to everyone who has been reading my blog for the last month even though I haven't posted anything. Love you all! Please feel free to comment.

- Lots of Love, Random Girl xxx

Plans for Summer

SUMMER IS COMING! If Game of Thrones started the show with that line then maybe it would be slightly less depressing. Gotta love it though. Anyway, going off topic. So this summer is very exciting because it is the last summer I have before going to university. How will I spend it? Going travelling of course! I am going to be heading to Toronto, Canada first for three days to stay with family. Then heading to Orlando, Florida to meet my little cousin (who is fifteen) where we will also be staying with family. And of course going to Universal Studios! Can't wait. I love theme parks so much. And the hot sunny weather will be amazing too. Which is why I have been torturing myself running to be bikini ready :) Then we are headed to Tampa, Orlando where we will learn how to ride horses. Then Washington D.C to go on a shopping trip and site seeing. Then I am leaving my cousin who will go back home to Colombia and I will be going back to Toronto for a week. And after a month of travelling I will return home.

So need to buy a suitcase, book the rest of my plane tickets, buy books, movies, music have an amazing time! But be far away from my boyfriend :( well good thing I have Skype! 

-Random Girl xx

UK Breaks up with the EU. Big Mistake?

So my country is completely and utterly stupid. What the hell is wrong with people? People chose to leave because they were stuck up and selfish not wanting to follow "EU" rules. Do they even realise that now we have to follow their laws but without any control over decisions being made? For years! So we have even less control that we did before. The value of the pound has dropped, making our money worth nothing anywhere else. Which is really stupid as we have a trade deficit which means we import more than we export. My friends who work in foreign businesses will lose their jobs as the businesses leave the UK. And some of my very good friends who are practically family are from other countries in the EU. What will happen to them? If it was up to the younger people in the country this wouldn't be happening. And we are the ones who are going to live with this in the long term. I mean how hard is it going to be to get a job now? It is just a bunch of older people who were too selfish to think about future generations.

Anyway thats my little rant over. What do you guys think?

-Random Girl xx

Finished School

Hey everyone!!! Guess what!?! Exams are finally freaking over! I am freeeeeeeeee. Okay sorry a bit over excited. It hasnt really hit me yet that school is officially over. I had all the special ceremonies, presentations, end of year pranks etc. Today I handed in all the textbooks that have been piling up in my bedroom for the past three years. I gave my teachers cards and presents and said goodbye to a few. And then I took my last (and toughest) exam. I kind of feel like I was missing something. Because all that happened is that I walked out, went into my mums car and went home. That's it. I have spent pretty much all my free time revising so now that I have free time and nothing to revise? Well I am bored. It has only been a few hours and I have been bored constantly. Luckily my best friend is saving me because we are going out tonight. But she is taking forever to get here for pre drinks so I am blogging and pre drinking on my own. A bit sad, I know but I can't really afford many drinks whilst out so I need to drink more now so I can buy less drinks whilst out. Good thing my brothers prom was yesterday because there is a lot of free leftover alcohol for me to drink :)

-Random Girl xx

Shitty Mood

So I am kind of in a shitty mood. And I don't know why but I have felt like this every evening for the past week. My boyfriend is always at work in the evenings, my friends are away, busy or I can't get to them (because I can't drive), my parents are out every single night and my brother just hides in his room ignoring me. So basically I spend every night alone and it sucks. Either no one wants to spend time with me or they are too busy. But either way the outcome is the same. I'm alone. Not just alone but lonely. I don't always have someone to talk to hence why I am writing about it instead. Because for some reason it always makes me feel better to get it out onto words. Even if I don't get comments or responses. Because that was never what my blog was about. It was about writing how I feel. For me.

Lately life feels a bit like an emotional rollercoaster. I am either extremely happy and in a good mood or I am miserable and feel close to crying. I have had some amazing times lately, like being in love for the first time, making new friends and finally finishing school. And there have also been some not so great times, constantly arguing with my parents, my mum basically acting like i'm a stranger, refusing to let me grow up, having a shitty boss at work, being close to failing one of my exams which I only barely need to pass to get into university and a few medical issues which I don't really feel like talking about. Though those issues may be why I feel so weird lately because I was told I would get mood swings for a few weeks. And no I am not pregnant if that is what you are thinking.

It is hard to distract myself when I am alone when I know I need to revise. Because lets face it. Revision is boring so people's minds drift a lot which is the whole reason I stopped to blog instead. I was so distracted by my thoughts that I started writing something completely different than I was meant to so I gave up. For now.

So what was I distracted by? Well my idiot boyfriend basically dragged me off the sofa and I ended up hurting my whole side because I landed on hard wooden floor which hard objects beneath me and a 24 year old on top of me. Not to mention it was the side where I have a lot of previous injuries. So now my whole side hurts and aches. And because I have a stupid built up tolerance to pain meds I have to take this ridiculously strong one which is only a step down from the ones you get given after surgeries. And my body is still hurting because they take ages to work. Anyway the reason my mind keeps drifting off afterwards was because he was starting to act like a bit of a dick to me afterwards like I was the one who did something wrong. He just said he was tired and annoyed that he had to go to work but something felt off. Plus I was annoyed at him for causing me to be in pain when I need to revise and he didn't seem to even care he hurt me. Coming from the guy who always looks so sad when I'm a clutz who accidentally hurt herself or if he accidentally steps on me or something. It is just weird because we didn't even argue or anything but we have never fought before. And I don't know why I am so annoyed at him.

Then of course when you start thinking about one shitty thing when alone your mind wonders to other things. Mostly I then thought about how he left me to go to work. And then my parents decided to go out. Again. So it was another night alone. I am just so fed up of having no one to spend time with and always being alone to cook myself dinner, find myself something to do and then going to bed alone yet again. This has been going on for ages now but this week has been particularly bad. I can't remember the last family dinner I had, or a night out with friends, or a dinner date. It is just me and my idiot cat who keeps sitting on all my text books.

So anyway, that is my random rambling rant.

- Random Girl xx

End of School Update

Hi. Sorry it has been so long. Life has been busy. Same excuse as usual. School is finishing up which meant a lot of events and exams going on. So what have you missed?

Well I am not sure when the last time I posted was but here is a few key things. I had my last day of school ever. Everyone dresses up in school uniform which are tight and uncomfortable as they haven't been worn in two years. We wreck havoc at the school, bringing in 7 tonnes of sand with us. Why? Well if we can't go to the beach then why not bring the beach to us? Though our paddling pools don't quite beat the ocean. But its okay, we brought water guns to cool us off. Also filled out teachers office with balloons filled with glitter, post noted the windows, stole out teacher's shoes to invent a treasure hunt for her etc. This was followed by a presentation of our life at sixth form. Of course, I wasn't mentioned. Because why would I be? I'm basically a nobody. I went from being someone well known and friends with not only the nerds but also with the popular crowd, to a year where no one knew or cared who I was. Then there was a long boring ceremony thing which is kind of like a graduation only much lamer. I mean why don't we get a cap and gown like on TV? Or a diploma type thing. No we just get a boring speech about what we have learnt over the last few years.

So other than this, I have been mostly revising for exams. Sad, I know. Good news is that in three weeks its over. Bad news is that it means I actually have to take these last few exams soon. The hard ones which basically determine my future forever. Or at least for the next few years.

On a happier note, I did get to go out one night with two of my best friends who I hadn't seen since Christmas. They got to meet my boyfriend and I got to meet one of their boyfriends. So the two couples and the two thirds wheels all went out to surprise another one of my best friends for her birthday. She had no idea we are coming. Sounds like a great night, right? Well I still enjoyed it despite my friend taking cocaine, another friend getting harassed by these two guys, and my boyfriend nearly getting into a fight. Twice. So we gave up before things got worse and left early to end the night eating nachos. What better way to end the night than with your drunken best friends eating cheesy goodness.

So now what? Well I am leaving soon to go travelling for a month. I'm a little sad to leave my boyfriend but I am getting more excited about it now. I keep forgetting its actually happening because there has been so many other things to focus on before that happens. I had a nightmare last night though about it. I dreamt that I forgot important things and something went wrong with the flight. I always have weird dreams about all the possible things that could go wrong before something big happens. Like start of exams, first day of school, driving tests, holidays etc. So I am not really worried about the dream because nothing usually ever goes wrong.

Today I am kind of in a bad mood though. I was really happy and excited when I woke up. Was going to have a break from revision and see my best friend and then my boyfriend. Then they both cancelled and despite it being a really nice day I have no one to spend it with so I don't see the point in even getting dressed. (Don't worry I still showered.) It just made me realise I don't have any friends here at the moment. I couldn't think of anyone to meet up with because they are either busy revising or away at uni or somewhere. I can't wait for them to all come home. Because right now I am alone an it sucks. The only reason why I remembered to blog today was because I have no one to talk to so I decided to talk to strangers instead.

One last thing. Thank you to everyone who has been reading my blog whilst I haven't been posting. Normally I come back to 0 views for weeks but I have had people reading it every day which is pretty much a miracle to me. As summer approaches I will hopefully be able to post more about my summer and my trip.

So there is a little update for you all :)

-Random Girl xx

Family Flaws

Does anyone else find that their parents are acting weirder and weirder the closer you get to going away to university? Is it normal? My parents are just putting a ridiculous amount of pressure on me to work hard. It doesn't matter than I spend about six hours or more a day revising and that I am getting A's for the first time ever in nearly everything. They say I apparently do nothing but watch tv and go out when I spend all my time actually revising. It just seems like no matter what I do they are never proud of me. They just point out everything that I have done wrong instead of congratulate me on what I have done well in. 

I had a huge argument with my mum yesterday and she has basically constantly attacked me ever since. But for months she has just been tougher on me and making me more and more depressed. I am just always sad and in a bad mood. If it wasn't for the fact that I don't want to completely lose my relationship with my parents (and that they are paying for some of my uni next year because my loan doesn't cover it all) then I would have probably moved out by now. 

It seems dramatic but they just make me so unhappy. And it is sad to think that I would be happier without them. All they do is make me cry when I am already stressed enough as it is with exams starting in just over a week. How is it fair that I have to be sad when I work so hard? And that it is my own family that is causing it.

I thought it was just these last few months that they have changed. Or even that I have changed. But I am slowly realising things as I look back at my life. Just about how naive I was. I come from a well off enough family, gone to private schools, lived on a boat and I'm even a little bit spoilt. It sounds good on paper right? Or in this case your screen. But having all that stuff doesn't make you happy. Life is about so much more than that.

I realised today that the last happy memories I have with my dad was from when I was about seven. I am nineteen and still live with him. It shouldn't be this long. But he is always working. Mum says that he is just doing it to provide for us and give us what we have. But I would take him being happy and smiling, spending time with me over a bunch of fancy crap any day. It is almost like he is a completely different person. 

Then there is my mum. Who I was always so grateful for looking after me when I was sick. But that kind of blinded me from what she is like as a person. She uses everything she has done for me as a way to guilt me into doing stuff for her. She constantly orders me around, controls what I do. Basically my life worked around hers so she could do what she wants and I had to make it work for her. I think that might be why she is so mad at me now. Because for the first time in my life I am living my life the way I want to. Not the way she wants. She believes she is always right and that there is a double standard about everything. When I go out she says we need to spend time as a family, when I ask to do something together, every single time she tells me she is busy or going out. It is basically her way or.. well her way.

I think I am just becoming more miserable as days go past because I am realising that what I thought was a pretty good family is basically broken. None of us are truly happy with our lives. We don't spend time together. We pay attention to more superficial stuff than what really matters. And that sucks.

So I promise myself today, it doesn't matter if I have a fancy house, send kids to private school, have all the latest stuff. As long as I have a family I love, and who loves me. As long as I go out and see the world for what it is. As long as I do what I want with my life. I will be happy. And I will never let myself become as miserable as my parents.

-Random Girl xx

Ten Things to Look Forward to at University

So I have been thinking a lot about the future lately. Not super far, just the next few years. And I am excited but a little sad too. So if you read this blog regularly you will know that I should be going to university in a few months. And yes I have thought a lot about having the freedom to do what I want, go out when I want and be far from home. But there are lots of little simple things that I have only just realised that has made me really excited about going. Here is a little list-

1. I can wear whatever the hell I want! I am way to excited about this one. After having to wear school uniform for years and then sixth form clothes, I am thrilled to be allowed to wear jeans and a T-shirt every day. Hmmm... may need to buy more clothes. Shopping trip anyone?
2. Go out whenever I want to. No long lectures from mum or curfews.
3. Eat whatever I want. I get to choose what I fancy everyday. However, I may just end up forgetting to eat. Whoops.
4. Buying duvet covers and cutlery. Will be cool to have new bedding and have my own cutlery. 
5. Living in a new place. After living in the countryside for the last six years, living in the city will be different. Especially without my family.
6. Making new friends. I actually can't wait to meet new people in halls and have a bunch of new friends around all the time. This year all my friends are far away so having some close will be nice.
7. Living walking distance from my best friend. We have been living hours away from each other for the last two years and now we can see each other whenever I want.
8. New Stationary! because who doesn't love the smell of fresh paper and new coloured pens.
9. New subject to study. I am actually looking forward to learning new things. Especially because its mostly coursework based and not exams. God I hate exams.
10. Making new memories. Yes, I can be cheesy too.

So there you have it. My list of things I look forward to doing in September. Will probably have a post coming up about my plans for summer soon.

-Random Girl xx